day 18 and a eureka moment!

[nsd_user663_56837]

Was out shopping earlier (after getting my nails done, unusually girly for me all this!) and saw this lady literally run out the shopping centre, scurry around in her bag for her fags, light one then she sort of leant/collapsed against the wall as if to say she was really going to explode if she hadnt got that drag off her fag when she did! I laughed to myself and thought thats what i USED to look like but usually hiding round the corner from my two harrassed stressed out kids at the same time so they didnt see their addict mummy.

Life is hard going thru this but so so good!

[nsd_user663_56237]

Was out shopping earlier (after getting my nails done, unusually girly for me all this!) and saw this lady literally run out the shopping centre, scurry around in her bag for her fags, light one then she sort of leant/collapsed against the wall as if to say she was really going to explode if she hadnt got that drag off her fag when she did! I laughed to myself and thought thats what i USED to look like but usually hiding round the corner from my two harrassed stressed out kids at the same time so they didnt see their addict mummy.

Life is hard going thru this but so so good!

It's a great realisation of what we used to be like ourselves, when we see how smokers act as they're gasping for a cigarette. At first it can seem funny, but becomes quite tragic when you picture yourself as that person.

Shopping centres are a good one for me, if I'm having a bad day, because seeing perfectly normal human beings act that way makes them seem crazy! Lol. I'm so glad that I no longer get the urge to huddle in a doorway or dash outside the shops so I can have my 'fix'

[nsd_user663_54332]

Was out shopping earlier (after getting my nails done, unusually girly for me all this!) and saw this lady literally run out the shopping centre, scurry around in her bag for her fags, light one then she sort of leant/collapsed against the wall as if to say she was really going to explode if she hadnt got that drag off her fag when she did! I laughed to myself and thought thats what i USED to look like but usually hiding round the corner from my two harrassed stressed out kids at the same time so they didnt see their addict mummy.

Life is hard going thru this but so so good!

It's a mix of thinking they look funny and really sad - expecially when you realise that we used to be the same.

My bad one was doing the weekly shop, I'd have a fag before we left home, then as soon as we'd unloaded the food into the car would "need" another, so there I'd be standing in the car park with a fag rain or shine after a whole half hour in the shop. :rolleyes:

*Now* when I see people doing that I realise how pathetic I looked.

Huge well done to you for quitting!!

[nsd_user663_56837]

Ha ha should've seen me round tesco last night i was craving so bad i stomped my way round and nearly had a breakdown in the fruit and veg! Quickest weekly shop I've ever done and i literally sprinted past the ciggy kiosk then past all the smokers outside.

[nsd_user663_57104]

These posts ring so many bells with me!

Previously:

Decide to go shopping, have a fag first.

Gather car keys, coat, etc, go to car, have fag before setting off.

Arrive at supermarket, have fag before shopping.

Leave supermarket, have fag before driving home.

Get home, have fag before going into house.

Put away shopping, brew coffee, have fag.

Stupid.