Day 22... Help?!

Today is day 23 for me. Strangest thing... I woke up tasting a ciggie in my mouth! There are no ciggies in the house, so its not as if I smoked during the night without knowing it. I brushed my teeth, had coffee, had breakfast, nothing took the taste away! I took one of hubbies chappies, and it seemed to do the trick for the taste. Still having heart palpitations though.

Luckily I am not allowed to drive or walk further than 1km, otherwise Id have been long gone to the shop for siggies. I really hope this gets better? Today I have the feeling of I don't want to quit. Why should I? I showed hubbie some motivational articles about people who did not quit and died a long horrible death. It helped him, but not me. I still feel like I will die one day anyway, might even be in a car accident or something. And if I get lung cancer or something horrible, then I will commit suicide so that my family does not have to go through it and end up with large debts. I know I sound very selfish and like a horrible person, but that is how I feel today.

Cant even have my daily walk outside today as it is raining and I dont want to get sick again... I am as miserable as the weather today...

Edit: just saw the heading was wrong and I can't fix it.

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  • Morning to you,

    Hey chin up! so you are feeling crap today. If you go have a fag the crap will still be there, it will still be raining-that fag will not bring the sun out. At least you are not strapped to a bed while your back heels, you are able to get up and look at different wallpaper. that fag will not help your recovery, it may even hinder it as you are fully aware-one of my reasons to give up was I had an operation on my shoulder 10 days into my quit and I knew from research that the best thing for recovery was to stop smoking.

    Turn the TV on and watch Saturday kitchen, the sun might come out later and you could have a gentle stroll.

  • PS, I often get that ciggie taste in my mouth, horrible isnt it, usually goes with something sweet, not always in the morning either:confused:

  • I know this feeling shall pass. Hubbie bought a lot of sweeties and lolliepops, but I dont want pick up too much weight seeing as how I dont get much exercise. So now I try to drink a glass of water everytime a craving hits.

    Some good news though... My final plaster came off the wound. Still a little oozing, but I decided to remove the plaster so the last bit can dry out.

    Also, hubby is doing great himself!!

    Will it be a bad idea to start using e-cigs?

  • by now, all the nicotine would have left your body, what you are craving is the memory of the habit. To start using an E-cig now would be to restart having nicotine in your system.those are the facts.

    this is my opinion- when we stop smoking, we want to break the habit, smell better, taste better, live longer and healthier, have more money. all an ecig would do is to replace one habit with another, one addiction with another as you will eventually have to quit the ecigs. However, you can get ecigs that are nicotine free BUT if it is just the hand/mouth thing then get a straw and shove a bit of cotton wool in one end to drag on. Also they havent approved ecigs as NRT and I believe i have read somewhere that some countries have banned them as dangerous due to the chemicals that are in them....devil's choice, do you start a new habit? If you dont have an ecig are you 100% going to go back on the fags.....or can you ride it through the storm and get through without???.......Come with me and I will hold the umbrella, we are both on day 23, only5 days to the 4 week milestone:D:D

  • utterly agree with you ;)

    An inspiring post,Trea,if I was a new quitter I would be holding onto your skirts I can tell you!:)

    thank you Max :D BTW got jeans on but you can't hold then some little so and so keeps grabbing the bottom of them today...little sh*t...don't worry though I keep bashing him hard with the baton-most useful:D

    Anyway Liquid Ice 76, tell us why you choose the tag name, do you have a real name we can use or can we shorten your tag to something?

  • Thanks for the pep talk. I actually just realised I am nearing the end of day 24! Somewhere I missed a day! Lol. That means I am actually futher along than I thought... Cool!

    LiquidIce is a name I came up with in high school years ago and it got stuck. I now use it for all my photoshop work, twitter and online games. You can shorten it to LI, it is what all my online buddies call me...

  • hi all

    my 2 cents worth

    water, liquid ice is water lol

    going back into my box now

    oh btw ... congrats to all on the quits stick with it

    cheers

    gra

    One year, four months, two days, 43 minutes and 50 seconds. 29341 cigarettes not smoked, saving $16,724.82. Life saved: 14 weeks, 3 days, 21 hours, 5 minutes.

  • hi all

    my 2 cents worth

    water, liquid ice is water lol

    going back into my box now

    oh btw ... congrats to all on the quits stick with it

    cheers

    gra

    One year, four months, two days, 43 minutes and 50 seconds. 29341 cigarettes not smoked, saving $16,724.82. Life saved: 14 weeks, 3 days, 21 hours, 5 minutes.

    You are actually 100% correct. But when I was 16, I wanted something that sounded cool. Toxic Bunny was taken, so I stuck with LiquidIce...

  • Super dooper alley hooper proud of you. I could not stop without you with a clear sense of jealousy. I'm 20 ****** days behind you:D

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