Really? I've done it? Me? Who claimed she would be smoking in no time at all? Who was waiting for that fateful day (and almost had it) when a cigarette would be the only answer?
Some of you may remember, nearer the beginning of my quit, that I said I was scared of the idea that I would sit outside in the sunshine with friends and wouldn't be able to smoke. That I was scared of being away on holiday, relaxing, cocktail in hand, and I would miss that cigarette.
After two months I am finally a proud non-smoker. Those thoughts don't scare me anymore, they're like memories of the person I was before. I can think about that person and remember my life as a smoker, but also brush away the thought of wanting to be that person again.
I amd choosing not to smoke, every day of my life, and it feels great.
Now, don't get me wrong, I'm currently sat here on my sofa with the sun streaming through the window. It's Friday and I have no work! Woop. Hardly the most stressful of situations, I know. But I also have the confidence to know now that I can battle through the tough times until smoking really does become a thing of the past. I also have the help of my friend, the trusty e-cig (which I haven't actually used for the last two days), to give me a bit of a crutch until it's time to let go completely.
Thank you so so much for all of your help, everyone. I know now that this was my journey and I did this all by myself, but I wouldn't have got as far without you all watching my back.
To any newbies reading this post, go back to old threads of mine and of everyone else who has reached a few weeks or a few months or even a couple of years. Read through those times in our quits, when things weren't so rosey for us. And remember that things DO get easier with time.
I think it's time for the "handing over of the frying pan" ceremony. As some of you well know, this virtual frying pan has been my reason for laughing when I've had a really bad crave day (as well as the three musketeers, of course). It has beaten the living c*** out of so many of my cravings, and has helped me get to where I am now.
So, please feel free to take it. I don't need it anymore