I feel like cr*p.
I had problems with my breathing today. Didn't notice that I was holding it in half the time. I think I entered an anxious state from the combination of quitting, coursework, and a looming deadline that seems impossible.
I'm tired and my teeth hurt from grinding them together. But I got out and about for a break. Took my mum and sister out for coffee. It was wonderful because I got to pay for them... With the money I had saved from not buying smokes! Had a good time, and a strawberry milkshake to boot.
I didn't get out for my walk, nor did I get anywhere near the amount of work done that I needed to. Tomorrow would be great to do a lot of work on but unfortunately I have an appointment that takes about 5-6 hours there and back, and then I have to drive from mum's back home, which is another 2 hours or more (dependent on peak traffic).
Anyways I'll probably write more much later in the day... It's 2am here and I need to just shut my brain down... or scoop it out.
Night guys, thinking of you all and sending good vibes out to you to wish you an easier day in your quit
xo Exhausted Tal