Hi, I have been on and off this forum since October 2009 and still have not managed to stay quit. I have tried all sorts of methods: NRT, champix, hypnotherapy, cold turkey. I do well for serveral months and then I get this overwhelming sense of fear and urge to smoke and then I'm back to square one.
I then go on smoking again for a period of time and think I really need to quit but I am scared, scared of never smoking again, scared of all the weight gain and scared of not being able to mingle with my normal circle of friends. Nearly all of my friends and family smoke. I then reside to the fact that I am a smoker and do I really want to put myself through it again to start a few months down the line.
People I know have quit for well over 12 months then one day gone back to it.
I dream of myself of being this slim, fit non smoker with a whole heap of confidence but the truth is that I seem more confident as a smoker than a non smoker and I don't think I will be slim again as I just can't seem to stick to a diet either although I used to.
I have a very close family friend terminally ill and still smoking and when I asked this person why they said 'we have to die of something.'
I know I can quit but I just can't stay quit. I see all the inspirational things on here of people's lives changing, taking up new hobbies, etc and think wow I could be like that. Then the other part of me says you are who you are and you will never change.
Are there people who have to reside to the fact that they are a smoker?