So I want to quit I need to quit and I will quit but where do I start?
What am I worried about? Not fitting in? Failing? Being healthier? Admitting I was wrong? What????
A health scare and fear of the dreaded c word and I still am letting the thoughts enter my head that say you can't do this you fail at everything you try you give up to easily your not committed enough to anything you are hopeless. What am I doing?? Why am I telling myself this?? I can honestly say I have had less than half the amount of smokes today than I would normally have had but every time I tell myself this is the last one something triggers in my head and I freak out. I feel like I might loose control if I quit but loose control of what?? The thing that sits forward most in my mind is my last quit attempt I lost my mind over a iced coffee and after 5 days and I am scared of being that person forever even though I know in my rational mind I won't.
How do I start to believe I can do this??