Giving up smoking has been one of the strangest experiences of my life ...I think when you start you imagine that you are going to crave cigarettes until about Day three and then the gaps between craving pangs get bigger and by Day 28, you're all fixed! Ha!
Now I'm not that naive, but I'm astonished at the ever-changing face of the demon that is called smoking; one day, you have a bit of a tough time, the next you're feeling pretty upbeat and then bang! you feel such a sense of despondency and despair!
I never expected this feeling of genuine depression, feeling so lethargic ...nothing really makes me feel any better, so much so, that at 7:00pm this evening, the best I could come up with was to go to bed and sleep for 4 hours ...only to wake up and feel not the least bit better. Now what I don't know is... is this a backdoor way of the cigarettes fighting to find a way back into my life, playing games with my subconscious?, or has giving up smoking caused me to become reflective and exposing the fact that perhaps life isn't all that good right now and smoking provided a temp. fix to problems that run deeper???? :confused:
Right now, I'd love to feel 'something' rather than this 'nothing at all' ...so help me out here guys...did giving up have such an intense impact on your mood? Grumpy would be good right now, but I just feel so incredibly flat!
So where am I ...is this normal, or nutty!:mad: Please let me know!