17 days and then Trigger Happy...

[nsd_user663_47108]

I just want to scream!

So many triggers this weekend, all adding up, I guess.

At midnight tonight it would have been 17 days but I've got home from work tonight and had a couple of the wife's fags. Why? Damned if I know.

I'm now seriously peed off with myself. I don't feel any better, I worry about my chest in the morning and I just feel soooooooo stupid.

AAaaargggh!

I had every intention of posting a...

"Hey, I'm doing well, no great worries, not wanting to smoke, etc..."

...type post tonight, but it was not to be.

It's been such a busy weekend for triggers. Last home rugby match of the season. Out for a meal. DIY. Fitting new Dishwasher. Fitting new Oven. Picking up new (to me) car. And I got through everything.

And in the last half-hour, I've been lazy...

Bollox

I'm going to bed...

[nsd_user663_17716]

When I think I want a cigarette, I have a little 'word' with myself. I can get anxious and succumb to a craving by having a cigarette and feel shite about myself or I can deal with the craving, refuse to smoke and feel shite about myself. Same anxiety but one is definatley better than the other... I will let you decide

[nsd_user663_42220]

Dang, there seems to be a lot of failed quits occurring at the moment pappy h.

Don't feel down about it, pick yourself up, dust yourself down and start again.

You made 16 days last time, if you start again tomorrow and at least match that, you will have gone a whole month and only smoked a couple on 1 day.

That's infinitely better than what you used to smoke as a smoker.

You only fail if you quit quitting. You don't strike me as the giving up, getting beaten type, so get back on the horse and start again. :cool:

[nsd_user663_47108]

Back on the horse!

I've been trying to rationalise why I had the two fags last night and I just can't. The wife's smokes have been available every evening since I quit but I've just ignored them so what was different on Monday night?

The good Captain says that there have been a few of us who have been posting about "failing" in recent days and he is right. I wonder if the ole subconscious had taken this in and said to me, "you know, they've had a cigarette, why don't you?" And then in a weak moment, I did! Could be, might be, I don't really know but I guess it's possible.

Anyway, I'm putting it down to a blip. I've been in a smoking environment today and will be again at work this evening but I have no wish to smoke. I've been to the shops and seen the rows and rows of tabs on offer to buy should I decide to do so. But, you know what? I don't.

This is Day 18 and I'm back on the horse.

[nsd_user663_40437]

Well done pappy on getting back on your horse, and a mighty stead I am sure he will be.

Love Joan x

[nsd_user663_47108]

Thanks Joan.

Much appreciated!

[nsd_user663_7529]

Pappy - you have 17 days of breaking your normal triggers. You just need to do your 3 days of getting rid of the nicotine from your system again - which will be hard and unplesant, but you shouldn't throw away the work you've already done. You've probably broken some triggers already (first one in the car on the morning/coffee break at work).

[nsd_user663_27907]

Same here - twas my husbands birthday over the bank holiday and we were out all day Sunday. Had a couple of his smokes, can't say I particulary enjoyed them.

Not going to beat myself up, just a blip. Not had any since Sunday night, don't intend to have anymore. I am not a dirty smoker anymore!!!