feeling slightly on edge day 59

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Listening to ACarr because I feel like lighting up had enough og moodiness andfeel like CRAP. I don;t know how im going to be when I give up the loz next month. J::confused:

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J

Forget next month just deal with now. Tomorrows another day. Keep going, day 60 tomorrow how good is that.

Don't let us down but most of all don't let yourself down

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thank god.....

...someone feels like shite also. Thank you fleetwood and I haven't got as far as you yet (I'm at the end of week 6). I have found this weekend sooo hard. I keep bursting into tears. I keep having mental blocks (I really can't rememeber anything in the recent past). I don't want a fag, but I want to feel like 'normal' and I realise that the only way I can feel like that is to start smoking again. I feel TERRIBLE and I want it to stop. Fleetwood, you are further on than me....okeeey, let's make a deal...stick with it until you reach a year, if you still feel bad then start smoking again okay (and I will too)?

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Fleetwood and Poppy - please hang in there. This doesn't last forever.

I don't want a fag, but I want to feel like 'normal' and I realise that the only way I can feel like that is to start smoking again.

You're not alone in feeling like that. Your 'inner junkie' as I like to call him, is whispering in your ear and telling you that you are denying a crucial part of your identity by not smoking. Smoke again, and you will be magically returned to your old self.

Well it's true that you'd return to being a smoker again. But there isn't anything about that which you want!

It's NOT true that smoking defined you - it's just that you'd built up so many associations with smoking that it feels that way right now. Keep going, and one by one you will break those associations. What you'll be left with at the end is the essential you. Exactly the same as you were before, just without the disgusting, carcinogenic, artery-blocking, poisonous crap you were inhaling before!!

I promise you, I felt exactly the same way. It doesn't last forever.

stick with it until you reach a year, if you still feel bad then start smoking again okay (and I will too)?

Damn good plan! If you get to a year without smoking and still feel the same way I'll... well, you name the forfeit! And knowing you lot, you know I wouldn't promise that lightly

Helen

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People who have never smoked have ups and downs, smoking doesn't cause it, nor will it make things better. That really is all in your head and yet another trick of the mind that the nicodemon is trying on you.

You will both get through this period and things will get better, you just need to give it a chance. 60 odd days is hardly any time at all to change your lifestyle after years of smoking.

Just keep saying no, try and eat healthily and, if possible, start exercising.

Jacqui, if you don't feel up to giving up the loz next month then don't. Better to keep using them than smoke.

Give it time ladies, you smoked for years so it will take time to readjust.

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thanks to..

hellesbelles (spelt incorrectly, soz) and capitan - you are both absolutely right. And I am trying to be sensible about this -and every time i feel angry, or down, or stressed, I ask myself did i feel angry, or down, or stressed when i smoked, and the answer is 'yes' so the solution is not a fag...etc...but when i feel so downright WIERD, and the reason is lack of fags, it makes me long to feel normal again (i'm actually starting to feel a bit detached, and depressed, and lonely which is scary!)...i'm not going to start smoking again but i really want these feelings to just go away....

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People who have never smoked have ups and downs, smoking doesn't cause it, nor will it make things better. That really is all in your head and yet another trick of the mind that the nicodemon is trying on you.

You will both get through this period and things will get better, you just need to give it a chance. 60 odd days is hardly any time at all to change your lifestyle after years of smoking.

Just keep saying no, try and eat healthily and, if possible, start exercising.

Jacqui, if you don't feel up to giving up the loz next month then don't. Better to keep using them than smoke.

Give it time ladies, you smoked for years so it will take time to readjust.

I don't know Capitan but I've read a lot of his posts since I quit, and I gotta say, this is one smart dude.

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Poppyseed, I know what you mean about feeling detached and depressed. I had that in month 4...you feel like shit cos you don't want to smoke (not really as you know that you felt miserable smoking) but you also want to feel whole again. I can only describe the feeling as being weird too. I just had to grin and bear it before the confusion, detachness went away. I still get it now and again but never day after depressing day like I had before. I'm still trying to fill in the gaps with something interesting when I used to smoke. Some people find this harder than others. TIme to get out and about and think about what I want for hobbies etc. Anyway, just wanted you to know you're not on your own feeling this way.

Hope it lifts soon.

Lisa xx

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Thanks for all your replies. Ive just had a pop at OH because im just bored with life and i havent been anywhere seen anyone all over easter so so depressed with everything. But i still am smokefree. Thanks for your encouragement. And as poppyseed said i was like this when i smoked too. So its not the fag talking its just how im feeling. Jacqui

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I am feeling a bit like you today Fleetwood, I got up this morning and could have murdered a smoke. I am still on the middle strength patches until Wed, so had a shower stuck one o had a few puffs on the inhalator and feeling a bit better now, I just felt weak for some reason. I keep thinking of all. The withdrawals I have gone through to get to week 8 or is it 9 not sure, I think it's because it's Easter and a holiday lets hope tomorrow is a better Day xxx