cuz that bloody nicodemon is playing a horrible game with you.......day 8 was a killer for me although I did actually refrain from killing anyone....so that was a bit of a bonus in my eyes :eek:
you can do this, take it minute by minute have an early night or a bath or a shout or just rant on here......you WILL GET THROUGH THIS....hang in there
I had a bad day yesterday, my day 8. Like you no real reason that I can figure out! Today has been ok, not great but ok. We've just got to keep going. There is no way i'm going back, we've all come so far and from reading posts on here *it will get better :)*
why though when nothing happens to us do we just turn in to a massive pain in the arse. my days so far have been good and ive managed to coach newbies on here.
Then why now on day nine does this new found craving suddenly appear??
Hell knows????
Im off for a walk guys to try relax, be back in a bit. promise still a none smoker. might kick a few lamp posts though.
btw gary how was your day? can we talk in a bit? im just not right good at the moment.
Poor Sii I feel exactly the same today and had a moan to him earlier hope I didn,t cause his wobble. How was your day Gary we have all been thinking of you. Have we got a new member in Rochelle could do with another female I'm feeling a bit outnumbered!
Me and Sii are on day 9, I'm also on patches, was using the spray and a fake cigarette but have stopped using them as they were getting habit forming so just the patches now.
Dolliy's mixtures sounds good to me Gary, did you realise we were both posting to Shakera at exactly the same time the messages overlapped! how weired. Im still trying to find my way around this site beginning to make sense of it, it takes me a while!
Im here, a little fed up, annoyed with myself. i really dont know whats happened, for some strange reason a dark cloud fell over me around 2ish, (no Dolly it wasnt down to your good self, im sorry for making you thing like that).
Absolutley nothing at all, i was not near anyone no one upset me no one even spoke with me, i just felt like walking away from everything,work, life, the lot.
the thing was it wasnt as if it was because i wanted a smoke, because i didnt.
It was like nothing ive ever felt before, really really bad, didstancing myself from every thing. i thought about shutting my office door and locking myself away, but that would have made me worse. i just longed for five a clock, the drive home was horrendous. then of course when i walked in to my house i felt the same i just needed to be alone.
never ever felt so bad ever, i still dont know what happened, it was like i was having a break down.
i knew i was getting mad, but i couldnt help it,i knew i was snapping but couldnt help it. what a mess.
Anyway on a brighter note, all lamp posts are intact around Sowerby Bridge, still shining bright and my toes are not broken. i went for a walk for about 30 mins and then locked myself in the bath. ive come round now, i can still feel it in the back off my head, but its dipping now.
Really really weired.
ive just re-read my post pre walk and i cant remember writing it. i was just focused on getting away.
thanks for the posts guys in my abscence, i was thinking of you all as i pounded the lonely streets. you guys probably made me come round.
Cheers guys. just goes to show i really need help, i thought i was coping. little did i know the demon was about to raise up like never before.
I ve never had this on my previous quits, but then ive never cold turkeyed before.
You've probably got the rage out of your system now. Its probably the last stages of the nicotine trying its hardest to keep you trapped! You've got through it now.
Dolly, I am still on patches do you think the nurse will drop me to step two after two weeks? I feel I'm ready. I dropped the gum, was only making me think a craving was there which it wasn't, so I havnt had the gum for nearly a week and I feel better without it
You have made a massive change in your life after 22 years!
For 22 years you have conditioned your mind and body to rely on chemicals to keep you stable.
Then you cold turkeyed! That is going to be one hell of a shock to the system and no wonder you sometimes feel really low.
Your body wants the chemicals back and is trying everything it can to make you provide them.
It has been said that getting off and staying off nicotine is as hard as heroin.
You survived this one, you'll probably have this happen again, but the further away from your quit date you get, the less and less it will happen and the less intensity there will be.
One day you will have conditioned your mind and body to remain stable without the chemicals and at that point you will have won forever...
As long as you are never tempted to try a cheeky drag again!
What patches are you on? I'm using the 25mg ones but have been cutting them down as I worry they are too strong. I'm just buying them myself so would be curious to know what your nurse says. Thinking about moving to step 2 when I run out which will be about 2 weeks for me too.
What patches are you on? I'm using the 25mg ones but have been cutting them down as I worry they are too strong. I'm just buying them myself so would be curious to know what your nurse says. Thinking about moving to step 2 when I run out which will be about 2 weeks for me too.
Well I'm booked in on friday at half 2 so I will let you know. I am on the same as you, the nicorette ones. If I feel ready she can hardly refuse me can she. I want it over with as quick as I can
if it's any consolation we've all been there....it smacks you square between the eyes and knocks you backwards forwards and upside down.....it enrages you, tires you, weakens you, makes you apoplectic and weepy....it is so powerful you sometimes feel you are losing your mind........but and this is the good bit....it doesn't last forever......take it one step at a time......with support you come out the other side......it gets easier.......I'm not that far in front but I'll drag you along with the rest of us.....the Penthouse sounds too good to miss....:rolleyes:
That's true! I'm like you I want it over with asap. I have a friend that quit using patches and I know people say do what ever works for you, but she was using them for 7 months!
Mate like i said it wasnt down to th efact i want a fag, it was probably like you said, down to the chemicals in my body. my body crying out for them to be topped up. it must have needed them to throw such a chemical inbalance like that.
Anyway enough about me whinging on, glad today went well for you Gary. i knew it would we were thinking of you, we were there with you in mind, and hopefuly you knew that. Even stood with the smokers eh, well done you. i managed that yesterday. its the best feeling in the world, knowing that your free from the hassles and pains of smoking isnt it.
Like i say well done.
Good evening Rochelle, welcome to the club, i hope my little out burst tonight hasnt scared you. im normally very calm, very polite and up for a laugh. I'd like to say you've joined a lovely website with top people who care how others are feeling. Like ive said before hugs are free on here, if you need one just ask. theres plenty of us to give you a cuddle if your felling a bit low.
Another female now the men are outnumbered!!! welcome Bec81 I spoke to the nurse at the clinic today on the phone as they cancelled tonights clinic and I asked her if i could lower the dose of the patches she said it was up to me to try what I thought was best, I've got to wait 2 weeks though as she has cancelled next weeks clinic as well, such support, thank goodness for everyone here. Glad you are back with us Sii seems we both had a rubbish day that cloud was over me this morning but we are still here which is great, in the words of Viviene Leigh in gone with the wind "tomorrow is another day"
Every little battle won is one step closer to winning the whole war.
5 in "Dolly's Mixtures" now and like I've said guys and gals, when we meet up in around 51 weeks the champagne or other drinks of your choice are on me.
Yeah but Gary the thing is i thought i was winning. Never thought things could get as bad as they just did, just goes to show i'm far from being out of the woods yet.
That's true! I'm like you I want it over with asap. I have a friend that quit using patches and I know people say do what ever works for you, but she was using them for 7 months!
Why is quitting smoking such hard work!:mad:
Well my boyfriends mam quit using patches and she told me to do the full 3 steps. That's why I'm scared to just stop using them lol the course is 8 to 12 weeks depending on you, so we shouldn't be on them for 7 months! I havnt found it hard work, I feel guilty lol
Mate like i said it wasnt down to th efact i want a fag, it was probably like you said, down to the chemicals in my body. my body crying out for them to be topped up. it must have needed them to throw such a chemical inbalance like that.
Anyway enough about me whinging on, glad today went well for you Gary. i knew it would we were thinking of you, we were there with you in mind, and hopefuly you knew that. Even stood with the smokers eh, well done you. i managed that yesterday. its the best feeling in the world, knowing that your free from the hassles and pains of smoking isnt it.
Like i say well done.
Good evening Rochelle, welcome to the club, i hope my little out burst tonight hasnt scared you. im normally very calm, very polite and up for a laugh. I'd like to say you've joined a lovely website with top people who care how others are feeling. Like ive said before hugs are free on here, if you need one just ask. theres plenty of us to give you a cuddle if your felling a bit low.
Ive just had one and now i feel great again.
Cheers guys i owe you
Its fine, we all have crap days now and then. I felt lower when I was on fags as I felt helpless to them. Now I've took control
Another female now the men are outnumbered!!! welcome Bec81 I spoke to the nurse at the clinic today on the phone as they cancelled tonights clinic and I asked her if i could lower the dose of the patches she said it was up to me to try what I thought was best, I've got to wait 2 weeks though as she has cancelled next weeks clinic as well, such support, thank goodness for everyone here. Glad you are back with us Sii seems we both had a rubbish day that cloud was over me this morning but we are still here which is great, in the words of Viviene Leigh in gone with the wind "tomorrow is another day"
That's good to know. I'm gonna tell her I wanna go to step two. We don't have a support clinic, just a nurse who talks to u and gives u prescription lol
Hi Si22, It's scary when it happens isn't it. I'm amazed at how loopy and up and down i've been at times in this. As you say, the sleep thing won't help. There's probably no point trying to work it out. Just accept it, and that it may or may not happen again. You survived it and that's the main thing.
oh oh oh oh! Really excited now! just noticed i've become a senior member! does that mean i can go and smoke behind the bike shed with the other sixth formers?! whoops!
Hi Hilary, yeah it is scary, really scary, i felt totally out of control of myself. dont get me wrong im no where near a control freak, but i do like to have a grip on what im doing and what im involved in.
Hell my working day can be extremley demanding as im a warehouse manager, at times i dont have time to think about lunch let alone anything else. i have to be in control and be thinking well in advance of procedures etc. what happened today was bad, luckily my day was quite tame, and i was able to detach myself from my work. No meetings or anything.
very scary how our bodies seem to take over our minds. a little bit too scary. it made me realise what we are up against.
Gary no worries at all mate, i knew you were in for a rough time today and needed a little support, i just thought you 'd like to know i was there for you. and if it came to crunch time this afternoon, then may my little message this morning would be in your mind helping you along.
gary just re read you post to me regarding sleeping and the lack of it. i didnt know about caffeine. to be honest i do drink a few cups a day but none say after 5, mostly at work. but there is caffeine free in the canteen so i 'll give it a try tmw.
Me too Dolly. see you all tmw. hope you are ok. ive not been much use to th eforum tonight i feel, what with my wobble earlier. ill try harder tmw. at least my cough seems to have eased?
Si, hope you managed to get a better if not good nights sleep.*
Captain, glad yesterday went ok. I'm very impressed you were able to stand with the smokers. I'm a long way from that I think. The nearest I get is walking past a smoker in the street and I prefer not to do that. Caught myself looking longingly at a friends cigs on her desk at work yesterday...
Anyway sounds like the last couple of days have been pretty tough for lots of us so here's hoping to an easier end to the week
I am fine too Dolly thanks for asking been to work today and instead of going outside in the snow for a dirty ugly cancer stick at lunch time I sat in the warm and shared a vegetable supreme pizza from asda with 2 of my colleagues oh and heaps of salad too lol trying to keep healthy!
Hi everyone seems we have all had a better day today, long may it continue. I had a tough morning but my late afternoon craving was non existant today and the strange thing is I have only just realised. Things are getting better.
Glad you are still talking to me capitan after finding out what I keep in my cupboard! Am I the only one who hasn't binned them or is any one else like me and scared to make that final step?
Its fantastic, i read it before i quit 10 days ago, by the end of it i was so fed up of smoking, i was so not enjoying my last day as a smoker.
i found it totally by accident and i read it on my kindle, it was one of them books i really looked forward to reading after work, i was certainly ready to quit after reading it.
When i had read it i think its the last page it says something like look after this book, tell people about bu all means but dont lend/give it out.
Refer back to it when things are low.
When id finished it i thought nah i wont need it now im ready, ive read it once thats all i need.
When i saw your post today, i thought i'd re-read chapters and its helped.
Because i thought i'd done ok so far up to last night, i pretty much thought i was over every thing i was done with the cravings and the pangs.
if id have re-read earlier then yesterday maybe could have been easier.
Like our mate capitan said ive come out of it, and by god do i feel stronger for it. i can now recognise the sighns i'm slipping low. i did feel it today roughly around the same time as yesterday actually.
I just surrounded myself with people who i knew would make me happy/ laugh. without me telling them, they dragged me round. and i was happy non smoker again. Wahoo. :cool:
Glad you are still talking to me capitan after finding out what I keep in my cupboard! Am I the only one who hasn't binned them or is any one else like me and scared to make that final step?
Hahaha!
Each to their own Dolly, but having them at that close proximity could be dangerous if you have a bad wobble.
If you had to go to the shops to get some during a bad wobble you may well recover before you make the wrong decision.
Whatever works for you, we all have a personalised approach to our quits but binding us together is the same desired outcome. :cool:
Glad you are still talking to me capitan after finding out what I keep in my cupboard! Am I the only one who hasn't binned them or is any one else like me and scared to make that final step?
I gave my last 2 cigs away, 2 weeks ago from tomorrow my cousin smokes menthols, she lives with me and they are in the drawer, but I aint been tempted. Don't want to live that life anymore
Si,
it is a great read, Rochelle and I are both reading now too. Im deprogramming and getting un brainwashed one page at a time. lol
I'm nearly at the end now I've enjoyed reading it. You do realise how brainwashed you've been though. I'm just amazed at how I'm not craving anymore.
Ok,
Rochelle, 23 years old, smoked for 9 years, quit day 26th jan 2011 method nicorette patches, gum for first 6 days
I gave my last 2 cigs away, 2 weeks ago from tomorrow my cousin smokes menthols, she lives with me and they are in the drawer, but I aint been tempted. Don't want to live that life anymore
I'm a bit like that, I know that my husband has 4 left in a pack somewhere.... Haven't resorted to ripping the house apart looking for them...yet
Bec (Rebecca), 31 years old, smoked for 15 years, quit date 30th Jan 2012, method; patches and inhalator for first 4 days.
I really really couldnt have any smokes in the house, i found some filter tips under the table earlier tonight and it was like a light came on in my head, like Wooo i didnt know they were there...
It would be to much of a temptation for me im afraid. im still not strong enough yet although day 12 tmw, if someone was to offer me and it was in front of me it would be hard to resist. still.
I know what you mean, I think I'm doing ok but haven't really been round any smokers and certainly not been in a position to be offered a cig. I like to think I could say no. Just worry about what I'd say if I had a drink. Got a party to go to on Saturday night so that will be a huge test! Thank goodness smokings banned inside these days
I'm a bit like that, I know that my husband has 4 left in a pack somewhere.... Haven't resorted to ripping the house apart looking for them...yet
Bec (Rebecca), 31 years old, smoked for 15 years, quit date 30th Jan 2012, method; patches and inhalator for first 4 days.
Its not bad is it. If you don't have the desire to take them, then you won't. Well that's what its been for me anyway. She's actually on champix at the min, onto her final smoke day allowed tomorrow. I've told her I have every faith in her but I do secretly have my doubts lol she doesn't really believe she can do it and I don't think she actually wants to. But we will see. But everytime she comes in from the back yard a waft of fumes comes with her and I must admit I am becoming disgusted by the smell now. It just smells so stale and foisty and full of the crap that's in it. I dunno how I thought I enjoyed it!
I really really couldnt have any smokes in the house, i found some filter tips under the table earlier tonight and it was like a light came on in my head, like Wooo i didnt know they were there...
It would be to much of a temptation for me im afraid. im still not strong enough yet although day 12 tmw, if someone was to offer me and it was in front of me it would be hard to resist. still.
Awww don't see it like that, I'm sure you could resist it. I've stood with my friend at work and watched her have a fag, I've sat in my nanas house where she smokes, I've walked past loads of people in town smoking and to be honest all I feel is I am so pleased I don't have to do it anymore
Went down to boots after work and filled my basket with stuff I did need, with a few extras like some new make up and bubble bath and it felt so good to spend all that money and not to feel skint cos I had to buy my fags for the weekend. Its mint!! Lol (a northeast expression lol)
I've stood with smokers at work early this week. I too looked at them not wit a wish I was smoking still. But with thank god I've jacked that stupid game in.
You can choose to go outside now rather than being forced out in all weathers by an addiction.
I've stood with smokers at work early this week. I too looked at them not wit a wish I was smoking still. But with thank god I've jacked that stupid game in.
You can choose to go outside now rather than being forced out in all weathers by an addiction.
I it is mint ya right.
Lol I think we've stopped at the right time, this snow is slippy as owt!! Pleased I don't have to go out at lunchtimes in it when at work lol
No I havnt seen gary post at all yesterday either maybe he had a long day at work.
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I thought I knew better!
Well, I would never have believed it!
Thought I was meant to feel better?
