I have failed. Today I bought some tobacco and have smoked 2 fags. Tastes vile, but the battle in my head is over. I have obtained a stupid sort of peace.
At the moment that is a stronger feeling than that other voice which is berating me...
...self-pitying, weak, doomed, stinking.
I'll start listening to that soon and I'll have another battle on my hands, but for the moment I'm going to go away and try and sort my head out.
Thank you for all your wonderful support over the last 75 days.
I do wish you all the best with your continuing quits.
I will be back here, hopefully soon.