Am I into my second week already? Wow!

Well, here I am in week two of my quit. Aweek ago today I was sitting on the bus, wondering what my first smoke-free day at the office would be like. :)

It's ver, very strange, but it feels like it's been AGES since I last had a smoke. Not because I'm missing it -- oh no, no, no! -- but just seems like I've settled into my old lifesyle very well, and I love it! Notice how I used the word 'old' and not 'new'? That's because, even though I've spent almost all of my adult life as a smoker, I was a happy non-smoker first. It was a long time ago. But now I've quit, I can REMEMBER... strange, I know. But I'm so happy that I've quit. I get the urges to smoke, but I don't have too much trouble overcoming them. Because, you see, I thought I'd miss smoking, but I don't -- what I actually missed was me, the real non-smoking me, for all those years -- but I never realised that until now.

So much so, I've been spending a real trip down memory lane this evening. I've been watching re-runs of Blockbusters on TV. I used to watch that when I came home from school, eating my potato waffles that my mum used to make.

Even my depression has been getting better. I still worry a lot about about my health -- well, that's just me, I suppose -- but I know I'm doing the right thing now. And it's all too easy, I suppose, for me to look back now and curse the stupidity of my youth. I've often said that 'when I was younger, I wanted to be older and richer; now that I'm older and wiser, I want to be younger and thinner'. :)

It's true though -- kicking this habbit really is all in the mind. Cravings are nothing but cravings. Habbits are nothing but habbits. And, believe me when I tell you this, they are no match whatsoever for even the smallest amount of hope.

Right, I'm getting bad to my telly now -- 'I'll have P, please Bob!" :)

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  • Just as a side-note to my last post, I've been watching re-runs of Bullseye too. Remeber that? :)

    I couldn't help but remeber that Jim Bowen is also an ex-smoker, and found this on the internet. I just thought it was worth including here:

    "In 1973 I was smoking 80 cigarettes a day. I went to the doctor and had an x-ray and he said that I had emphysema. I was 36. He said that if I carried on smoking, after two years I wouldn’t be able to go from sitting to standing, and in three years I wouldn’t be alive. It frightened the pants off me so I left 80 Embassy and a gold Dupont lighter on his desk and never smoked again. It was easy because I was frightened to death." :eek:

  • Bloody hell emphysema at thirty-six....bloody pack years. Glad you're feeling so positive about your quit. That's how I feel most days now too. It sometimes feels like I've been asleep for ages like Rip Van Winkle and now I'm beginning to wake up and notice how life should really be like.

    Thanks for you posts legs, they're great and uplifting.

    A week or so ago work used to get so irritating especially the constant annoyance of one colleague in particular I worked with. Now, it really does go right over my the last couple of days all I do is smile and let it wash over me. Unfortunately this seems to piss her off even more, hey I can't help it......just feeling really chilled out, must have been that extra stress those fags give you by raising your heart rate and blood pressure. So much for the fagsrelaxing you huh? Anyway... not missing them in any sort of fashion. Just a few niggly craves that are easy batted away. oooooooooo 2 more sleeps til xmas.

    Lisa x

  • Great post, Legs-Eleven.

    There is no way to right the wrongs of our past.

    We made decisions that suited us at the time.

    Try not to worry about your health. Quitting is giving yourself the best chance possible for a healthly life.

    And you've done it'll never have to quit again.


  • Yes great post, Legs!

    I do remember Blockbusters lol! Blimey, it'll be Dallas next - or am I showing my age :p

    "There is no way to right the wrongs of our past.

    We made decisions that suited us at the time."

    I don't think any of us knew what we were getting into when we started smoking.

    I started smoking when I was 13 so I don't really have any adult memories of being a non smoker (except those I've created in the past 3 or so months ;) ) but I found myself remembering happy times from my childhood so I know what you mean.

    Well done with you quit so far.

    Now give me a "Q".....

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