I'm posting a bit earlier today -- it's a non-work day, so I've not been up to much. I rewarded myself with a nice lay-in this morning, but I've fighting the temptation to smoke quite a bit today. I'm not surprised, though, because I've every opportunity to do so (contrary to when I'm at the office).
Still, they've just been opportunisic urges, I think. No real drama. And I've only used my NRT once today.
I've just been reflecting on the last three days: I've already spared my body from exposure to 120 cigarrettes since I quit (not to mention the previous 2 weeks were I cut down dramatically prior to starting). I've saved enough money to buy a new kettle (about £36).
Although I'm really happy with my progress, I've been strugling a bit with my demons today. The same old chestnut -- have I already done the damage, and will all of this make any real difference in the end?) OK, so I'll be richer and healthier. But I just hope I haven't already secured my premature demise.
Anyway, I'm not going to dwell on it. But it's part of my day and part of my quit experience, so I can't avaiod or ignore it either. Dispite this, however, my depression hasn't been very bad today, and the cravings haven't been as strong -- perhaps I'm starting to adjust to functioning without the fags? Overall, it's been getting easier, I think, day by day. And that can't be a bad thing.
I was wondering, also, about how I would currently describe myself. I'm no longer a smoker. I'm not really a non-smoker either (I would normally describe someone who hasn't or wanted to smoke as such). I think the term ex-smoker sounds a bit premature at the moment. I think, if someone were to ask me if I smoked, I would probably reply as follows: "Yes," I would tell them, "Yes, I do. But I haven't wanted to smoke in a while, and I have no intention of doing so at any point in the future." It may make for some interesting conversation. :confused:
Anyway, a few more hours, and day 3 is over. Then onto day 4. I still can't believe it's been three whole days already.