Bit fed up.

[nsd_user663_20558]

First off, I'm not going to cave, so don't worry. But I have to vent, I'm not very happy today.

Firstly, I'm really struggling with the sunny weather. The last few days have been tough, although the rational part of my brain doesn't want to smoke, clearly my subconscious really hasn't worked through this one yet, and is doing its utmost to convince me that I really, really miss it. It's making me feel so edgy and discontented.

Secondly, my OH, who has also stopped smoking, had one the other night when he was really pissed off about something. Thing is he is one of those insanely rare people who actually DOES seem to be able to have one fag and then not pick up another one for months and months, so he's comfortably back on the quit with not a twinge. I know I'm not like this. I know one smoke would ruin it for me. And I am jealous.

I'm just fed up, because it's been so lovely and easy these past three or four weeks. I don't want to want it.:mad:

Rant over. Thankyou for listening.

[nsd_user663_23913]

Hey Helsbelles,

I know where you are coming from with regards to your o/h having one and you feel jelous, My o/h also gave up the same time as me, but EVERY single saturday he has 1 cigar and then has the bloody cheek to say that he is still a non smoker because its a cigar and not a fag!!!! It makes me so angry.

I hope you feel better soon... roll on winter!

[nsd_user663_15147]

OH aside - because both those situations are very annoying to deal with! - the sunny weather is really playing trick on all of us I think.

Well done for coming here and posting about it... I'm hitting 7 months next week and I just really want to smoke! Sooooo frustrating! I got through a 2 week holiday in the sun in December so why can't I get through this? Anyway, point is, I still haven't posted about the crazy craves I'm having and that's not healthy as it means I'm more prone to relasping. Thx for reminding me that we're allowed to post just to vent, even if we're not gonna have one.

But - like everything up till now, it'll pass I suppose... I keep telling myself I'll give not smoking this summer and see what happens next summer (if I still want to smoke). The wierd thing is... I know if I had one it would be disgusting... it's just the memory thats lingering, like you said, in my sub-consious.

[nsd_user663_3282]

What a bummer, Helen, Weezie and Sofia

I've not the time to explore anything that would help out and didn't wish to post empty platitudes either.

Weezie, if your OH has set up a regular pattern of a cigar at the weekend then one would think he's still smoking. But really I wouldn't wish to encroach on any marital harmony between the 2 of you. Your quit is yours and that's the thing to focus upon.

Helen and Sofia, I know both of you are going to keep plowing on but please dig around and see if there's any useful info that would help you to come to terms. It is not surprising to find that a person who has been having an easy time of things should suddenly, and with no valid reason, flip over to the opposite side of the coin. I kind of have to paste in here again the Shakespeare quote, which makes so much sense to me..."Nothing is either good or bad, but thinking makes it so"

But, sometimes a good rant is just the dogs danglies :cool:

PMA to all of you

Cav

[nsd_user663_23871]

... I keep telling myself I'll give not smoking this summer and see what happens next summer (if I still want to smoke).

I too am worried as the weather is starting to turn nicer here as well. I like this idea.....I'll smoke NEXT summer if I still miss it......

[nsd_user663_22002]

Aw Hels - that sucks! There are lots of things i could and probably should say re - you know you wont like it, think of how well you've done, you dont wanna put all those chemicals in your body etc etc.

But those are rational things and i suspect you know all of them and like you said, you know you wont cave and it's a concious/subconcious thing - so instead i will sympathise and empathise and send you lots of positive vibes, hoping that this feeling passes soon

Also not sure if this will be the same for you but i was thinking the same thing this morning re summer smoking and we had a work pub lunch planned and I so wanted to smoke at it.....until i got there and then it was fine! Hopefully you are also having a bizarre phantom future crave that will disappear when the situation actually comes about. Still pesky though i know.

xxxx

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Thx Cav - You're right, I'm sure there's something out there that can shed more light on this, thanks for taking the time to reply and being there to read the rants... they really are great (I'm stealing the 'dog's dangles' off of you btw!)

Hopefully you are also having a bizarre phantom future crave that will disappear when the situation actually comes about. Still pesky though i know.

wow - hadn't even though of that Lulabelle! That's a very good point... it could be the fear of sooo many future triggers to come that might be paralysing me in my quit. They might not even happen I'll just keep with that and see what happens!

Btw, sorry for slightly hi-jacking your thread Helen but you completely took the words of rant out of my mouth!

[Levs 1000 Days Smoke Free]

Hells, sorry you are having a tough time. I seem to be doing ok on the craves side of it but do have the fleeting thought of oh a fag would be nice now, like when I lit the bbq the other night, first time since stopping smoking and I would always light the bbq and then light a smoke. Just a new habit to be learned I suppose.

My DH is an occasional smoker when he has a drink and can then go months without one. I do find it annoying but I can't take the risk of having that just one as I know for me there would be another 10,000 that came with it.

Lookl at it this way, its just a couple of months, you can gedt through this and then it will be cold again

xx

[nsd_user663_22999]

Hels I'm so sorry you're a fed up right now.

I want to help but not sure I can or know how. So really all I can do is sympathise and say perhaps this summer is the one to be pale and interesting?!

[nsd_user663_20558]

THanks guys! It's all good. It helps to just say it, somehow it lessens the power of the crave.

It also helps enormously to know someone else is experiencing exactly the same thing. Being a bit further on in the quit I'd forgotten what a comfort that can be.

And also, I have been greatly cheered by a mint choc chip ice cream and a nap. It's really done wonders for my mood.

I love this place!

H xxx

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sorry you are going through a rough time but glad you are making your way through..you have proved to be a strong quitter and person and have helped everyone on this forum including me so a big thanks to you and stay strong.

the warm weather will only last for while but your quit can last the rest of your life!! its up to you hun......

[nsd_user663_20558]

On the plus side...

I love the sunshine, but it hates me... today I have had absolutely streaming and horrendous hay fever!!!

On the plus side, it's reminded me - at a time when i really needed reminding - why it's so great to be a non smoker. Because normally when the tree pollen hits I get all the stuff I have now plus hideous asthma, and can't go anywhere without sucking for dear life on my inhaler. I have not had the slightest wheeze today, despite my nose running like a veritable river and eyes so puffed up so I look like some kind of reptile.

So that's nice.:rolleyes:

[nsd_user663_20558]

Yes, lovely isn't it? I look in the mirror and am almost blinded by my sheer sexiness

[nsd_user663_20558]

Yes. Look at the feet, people. THE FEET! THE FEET!