Today was much better than yesterday overall but a lot of back and forth e.g.
1.About 11am went for a cig break (without the cig) to get in the sun and it didnt bother me at all that others were smoking, i didnt want to, which was great and unexpected. Thought how i used to really enjoy "summer smoking" but in reality i will enjoy "summer" much more without "smoking"
About 6pm really sad about the loss of summer smoking and thinking "maybe if i just smoke this weekend?" - and yes i know i cant, but it's annoying
2.General thinking is "i dont want to smoke" and obv i dont have to smoke, so i should be happy right, but am annoyed. It's like: i dont want to eat mushrooms and i dont have to and that's good - why doesnt it work with smoking? stupid addiction
3 days is good. mostly just want to hang in there to feel it get to the point where it gets a little easier (in my head that's day 8 - dunno why), cos i've never got there before.