Confession...

[nsd_user663_5972]

OK today well this afternoon I went to the shop brought 10 and smoked 3. I know, I know there is no excuse but I am having a tough time of things of late both professionally and personally and they were the only things which I thought could make things a bit more bearable for me (just being honest). I know and I do know they are not and it's just the nicodemon talking and the addict in side me.

If truth be told I'm not sure I can stop at 3 at the moment so could not call it a blip. At the moment I'm not sure I have the fight in me to continue with this quit. I feel I need to sort things out, deal with things, give myself a bit of a break and try again sooner rather than later.

I don't want to smoke but I suppose I have not found any other coping mechanisms.

To all of you who have supported me and to my good virtual friends I thank you and I'm sorry. I know there is no one I should be sorry to but myself but I am sorry to you to.

I will still be around.

I know many of you may see me as a serial quitter but please bear with me guys

Tinks xx

[nsd_user663_15752]

Sorry to hear that tink, try not to be too hard on yourself, we all know how hard it is. Have a regroup and hope you can try again soon.

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Aww Tinks

Really sorry to hear it has not worked out for you.............this time!!

Take all the time you need to sort yourself out and when you start on your next quit you will be a lean, mean quitting machine!!

[nsd_user663_4821]

Awwww The important thing is to take something positive from it so that next time you'll be more prepared and even stronger. Hope to see you back on the wagon soon.

Angie

xxx

[nsd_user663_2524]

Hi Tinks,

I actually think, that the first few days of the quit, are often kind of like the easiest. What l mean is, we have usually been thinking and planning our quit for quite some time, and in the first few days, we are on a high with our sense of achievement. Then the rot sets in. The novelty of being a non-smoker loses its allure and we realise that we would still like, nay love/crave, a cigarette. This is when you come on here, take up knitting - anything really, to take your mind off the Evil One.:eek:

It WILL get better/easier.

Are using anything to help? 'Cos l can't see the ponit of making things any harder than they already are.

Josie XXX

[Levs 1000 Days Smoke Free]

Hey Tinks,

Nothing I can say will make you feel any better or worse than you do anyway. Quitting is hard and sometimes life just gets in the way of it. I've said it before and will say it again, when it is right you will quit and stay quit.

I'm really sorry you have got horrid crap going on at the moment, regardless of smoking or not, life is too short for horrid stuff so tell them all to bugger off

Don't be a stranger and take care of yourself.

Sian xxx

[nsd_user663_20558]

Oh no!

Oh, that is really sad. I'm so sorry Tinks.

Please don't flop back into that prison cell, lock yourself in and throw away the key. Have a sniff around those dank corridors for a bit, remind yourself why you don't want to be there, and then rejoin us in the fresh air as soon as you're ready.

Love,

H xx

[nsd_user663_4026]

Hey Tinks.

For many years I would quit and secret smoke afterwards whilst pretending to be quit. I became very good at swaddling myself with hats and scarves and gloves to hide the smell in my hair.

It was a terrible habit and one I struggled to break as obviously, I never told anyone I was secret smoking so it was easy to continue secret smoking.

One day though, I realised I was only cheating myself. In fact, this forum told me that. I recall that my first or second post on here was to confess my secret smoking shame.

Once I realised that, it was easier to work through my issues and move forward.

You will sort it Tinks. Have faith in yourself. Fi xx

[nsd_user663_15147]

Hey Tinks,

Such a shame to see this but that just means its just not your time to quit yet.

I've seen you go into quits with so much determination, your head is in the right place - your life just hasn't caught up yet. Do keep quitting as an option for you at all times, don't forget that we're here and that you were once a happy non-smoker

Don't beat yourself up about it, quitting can be a process and no one here can say you haven't given it your all with the circumstances you're faces with.

Please be back soon!

[nsd_user663_4149]

Be good to see you back Tinks, smoking or not smoking. Just get back here when you're ready. David. xxxx

[nsd_user663_20263]

I gave up for a year in 2008/9, had Shedloads of stress and did the same thing... it took a year to regroup, but this is the third month of not smoking after the regroup.

Can I suggest something about your blip from someone who's been there, I hope you don't mind.

Don't allow yourself to get back into the comfort zone of smoking to relax, if you have to stand outside your front door in the rain when you want one, thats a good thing... the more unpleasent it is to smoke, the bigger the reason to not make a habit of it... the mistake I made, and the reason it took so long to re-commit to my quit was because I welcomed it back like an old friend, very quickly I reintroducted back in to my routine... don't buy lighters, and if you have, throw them away now. they are a tie.

I know I sound like a doom and gloom merchant, but try not to let it in, because it will be like going back to the start if you do.

btw, don't beat yourself up, its easily done. x

[nsd_user663_22320]

Hiya Tinks,

Believe me, your not alone. This is my fourth try at quitting. Yes, I am determined to make it work this time round, but I think that is because I have failed in the past. So this hiccup, could be the one that makes next time work for you. Rather than thinking of it as a failure, turn it into something positive and use it as a reason to be more determined next time. Hope this helps.

Ian

[nsd_user663_5972]

Thank you all for your support and advice. I don't want to sound too cheesy and all that but you really are some great folk on here. Shame there wasn't people like you surrounding me in my day to day life!

I am going to plan another quit date as soon as possible, of course I am. I don't want to smoke but (and I know I shouldn't make excuses), I'm in a pretty bad place at the moment (don't want to go into details on a forum) and need to sort things/get my bearings.

Well I suppose they say want doesn't kill us makes us stronger right?

Thanks again and I wish you every success with your quits

xx