Firstly, I am new to this forum so hello!
To give you some background, I am 36, have smoked since I was 12, smoked 20 a day and have tried to give up many times....I've tried patched twice in the past, gum, lozynges, micro tabs, hypnotherapy three times, zyban, champix and cold turkey!
Out of all of these, it was one of the hypnotherapy sessions that worked the best for me, and the only thing that made me start again after three months was my grandma dying (who I was incredibly close too) and my boyfriend leaving me for one of our mutual friends (after 5 years) in the space of a week.
Anyway, a couple of months ago I decided I needed to stop. I booked a session with a hypnotherapist but they had to cancel at the last minute so it got delayed. They got back in touch to say I should contact them on 10th Jan and we will set up a new appointment. I fully believe that this will work.
However, in the meantime I decided to have a go with patches...so on Monday I put on a patch but still smoked 4 cigs, on Tuesday it was the same but with 2 cigs, Wednesday, Thursday and today it has been patches, and gum and no cigs. Oh and I am also using an electronic cig now and again.
My body must be getting loads of nicotiine from all the NRT (probably more than when I was smoking) but I feel like I'm going mad!
I'm not sure whether I should have just waited for the hypnotherapy or whether that's just my brain trying to convince me to smoke a cigarette. I just don't believe deep down that I'm going to (or can) stick to it before having the hypnotherapy.
I feel like I'm going out of my mind, am I'm CONSTANTLY thinking about cigarettes no matter how hard I try not to.
Sorry for the long post and slight rant, but I just want to sit, cry, smoke etc until the hypnotherapy, but at the same time I don't want to have wasted the last few days.
I feel pathetic, that something has hold of me this much. I hate smoking and I love it all at the same time.