My week 3 journey...

[nsd_user663_9220]

Well have woken up today with mixed emotions..

I feel like i am arguing constantly with my mind and its driving me nuts!!!

"yes have one, no don't, yes go on, no don't"

Hubby has a left a roll up on the kitchen side and it keeps calling me :eek:

Even sitting here now in the lounge i can here it.."Hey Snowie, you gonna come and light me up or what?"

I know its tempting but i am trying to look at this positively by thinking if i can get through this day with temptation being this strong, it will make me stronger!!

Thats if i don't crack i suppose :confused:

Please wish me luck today as i fight this damned demon off me!!!

Going to read some posts and then do some housework and try and get myself busy.

speak soon

Snowie xx

[nsd_user663_16723]

Welcome to the 3rd week Snowie. I wanna bash your hubby :mad: Go and throw that rollup down the loo. You can do this Snowie, don't you dare give in now. Get rid of that temptation. You have people following you on here, watching to see how you are doing, not just forum members but the lurkers who read but don't join. You can do this hun. Be strong x

[nsd_user663_9220]

Part of me wants to throw it away but part of me does not :confused:

confused??? yeah me too lol

Think i am going to throw it away... well actually im going to dunk it in some water first, then leave it on window to dry out then watch hubby's face when he see's i have ruined it!!!

That will teach him :mad:

Grrrrrr so blinking hard today hun, i hate feeling like this... i am such a happy go lucky girlie most the time!

xx

[nsd_user663_16723]

We all have them days. I don't honestly know what I would do if there was a ciggie sat in my kitchen right now. I don't know if I would be strong enough to not smoke it. I'd like to think that I could throw it away. Your hubby shouldn't be leaving temptation in your way :mad:

I'm rooting for you honey.

[nsd_user663_9220]

ITS BEEN DUNKED

Phew, actually feel better already... was starting to doubt myself if i am honest.

Maybe i am not that strong enough yet for that kids of temptation.

Thank you Karen ((hugs))

xx

[nsd_user663_16723]

No need to thank me. I'm just glad it's gone hun, well done Snow, you're stronger that what you think. Not sure how many of us would have done that, so be proud of yourself x

[nsd_user663_16474]

Snowie!!!! I've just seen this thread!!

So sorry you're having a tough time today but thrilled to bits that you resisted and destroyed that roll up!! It's not a friend. It's a mortal enemy masquerading as one.

I had a day like you're having a while back and this forum really helped me through. I came away feeling stronger and more determined than ever. You will too!!!

Stay strong Snowie. We're all rooting for you :).

Ed xx

[nsd_user663_16968]

Hey Snowie

I have just read this post too and i am so so proud of you for dunking that nasty little beast and not giving into temptation. I would love to slap your OH too for leaving things like that about, thats not fair on you but you have shown how strong you are and not given in, so a VERY BIG WELL DONE

Anyhow hunni, week 3 already, well done on that too. Stay strong and please please if you feel an overwhelming urge let us know.

TTFN

[nsd_user663_9220]

Thank Mr Ed and thanks Jo

I am much calmer now!!! Its so funny how it grabs you all of a sudden ( i know i have said that before)

Have been reading through loads of threads dating back months and that has helped me too.

sorry for yet another rant from me, am hoping this will subside or not appear as often as it is !!

Snowie x

[nsd_user663_16474]

Thank Mr Ed and thanks Jo

I am much calmer now!!! Its so funny how it grabs you all of a sudden ( i know i have said that before)

Have been reading through loads of threads dating back months and that has helped me too.

sorry for yet another rant from me, am hoping this will subside or not appear as often as it is !!

Snowie x

Snowie,

Feel free to rant away as much as you like here. We've all been through similar situations so we understand what it's like.

You give far more than you take from this forum so you're well in credit :). Use it!!

Mr Ed xx

[nsd_user663_9220]

Mr Ed have no words to say about that post xxx

[nsd_user663_9220]

omg i am freaked out now!!!

As some of you know i lost my brother suddenly on Boxing day :mad:

Just having a look to see who is online ... nearly fainted when i see "deano"

I know thats just a coinsidence, but damn right freaky to me lol!!

[nsd_user663_16474]

Oh Snowie. I didn't know about your brother. How awful :(.

(((Snowie)))

Mr Ed xx

[Mmacleod123]

Snowie,

All I can say is Well done you. I am pretty sure I would not have had the strength to do that.

[nsd_user663_16968]

Snowie,

I agree with Ed that you should rant as much as you like and your always there for us and its only fair that we are there for you.

No one said it would be easy but together we can get through this and most of all its great to have such nice new friends that can relate to what your going through.

This site is brilliant and so are you guys, take it easy and rant & go as much as you like, we will listen and respond but remember one thing

N.O.P.E OK so bare that in mind and tell that Nicodemon to sling his hook when he comes a callin, cos your not interested and he is NOT WELCOME ANYMORE.

Good luck Hunni x

[Levs 1000 Days Smoke Free]

Oh Snowie, only just seen this SO SO SO SO PROUD OF YOU for throwing it away.

Wobbles and crisis of qjuitting faith are part and parcel of the quit process. You just have to ride them and come out the otherside.

I have a little voice in my head today that keeps saying go on, one won't hurt, very quickly and quitely, I almost miss it but its there. I know who it is, nasty nic thinks he's gonna try the stelth method as the all out attack didn't work (as he has been trying with you today) but it won't work on me and it won't work on you!!!

Stay strong hun, we are all here for you to vent at.

S xx

[nsd_user663_9220]

Oh Snowie. I didn't know about your brother. How awful :(.

(((Snowie)))

Mr Ed xx

Thats ok Mr Ed,

Yep awful and still cant believe its true but life has to go on doesn't it and have to be strong for my niece and nephew who will never remember who he was ( thats the saddest part)

xx

[nsd_user663_9220]

Oh Snowie, only just seen this SO SO SO SO PROUD OF YOU for throwing it away.

Wobbles and crisis of qjuitting faith are part and parcel of the quit process. You just have to ride them and come out the otherside.

I have a little voice in my head today that keeps saying go on, one won't hurt, very quickly and quitely, I almost miss it but its there. I know who it is, nasty nic thinks he's gonna try the stelth method as the all out attack didn't work (as he has been trying with you today) but it won't work on me and it won't work on you!!!

Stay strong hun, we are all here for you to vent at.

S xx

Well i didnt throw it away, just dunked it in water so it wasnt smokable

Hubby's face was a picture when he went to smoke it and see it was a shitty brown colour and all damp!! lol

Poxy voices hope they leave us alone soon Sian and thankyou for your reply xxxxx

Snowie,

I agree with Ed that you should rant as much as you like and your always there for us and its only fair that we are there for you.

No one said it would be easy but together we can get through this and most of all its great to have such nice new friends that can relate to what your going through.

This site is brilliant and so are you guys, take it easy and rant & go as much as you like, we will listen and respond but remember one thing

N.O.P.E OK so bare that in mind and tell that Nicodemon to sling his hook when he comes a callin, cos your not interested and he is NOT WELCOME ANYMORE.

Good luck Hunni x

Thank you Nutty xx

I sometimes feel i dont have much advice to give but know i have lots of praise for everyone and so hope that is really helping people.

I am going to start talking to that nico demon from now on and i dont care if i look crazy talking to myself either lol

xx

[nsd_user663_16723]

I feel the same way re the advice Snowie. So i just say well done and offer engouragement. It all helps doesn't it, knowing that people have took the time to reply to your thread and offer some support, it's what makes this forum so great!

How you doing today chick?

[nsd_user663_9220]

Afternoon everyone

Feeling pretty good today, have kept myself busy today and have not really been in much. I do find that being out and about my mind does not even wander onto having a smoke.. which is good!!

The only thing in this horrid weather is that there is not many places to go lol

Hope everyone is doing good today and heres to a great weekend

My weekend will consist of standing in a cold, wet and muddy field Saturday and Sunday morning, but its so worth it to watch my 2nd boy having fun and being the greatest left footer in the team or even league i should say

Have got a memorial service for my brother on Sunday afternoon too, so not sure how i should be feeling, but will cross that bridge on Sunday.

thanks again everyone for your support, you are all superstars

Snowie xx

[nsd_user663_17057]

Snow

Looks like it's going to be a "heavy" weekend.

Be thinking of you

[nsd_user663_16968]

Hi Snowie

Just wanted to see how you were doing today. I know you said that you have the memorial service today for your brother so remember that we are all there with you when you need a shoulder to cry on or for that extra support.

Im joining the Week 3 with you tomorrow so make a space please and Hun, do take care, remember your never alone and we will always be here for you.

Take care Hun xx

[nsd_user663_13507]

Snow33 I hope all goes well for you and your family today, we will all be thinking about you.

Take care

Tia x x

[nsd_user663_9220]

Thank you all.... *brought tears to my eyes*

But i didnt go to it!!

Had a long chat with my mum yesterday and we decided we were feed up with remembering Deano in a sad way all the time.

This year we have had so many hurdles...his funeral, his birthday, fathers day, his sons 1st birthday, his 10th wedding anniversary and his memorial bench and we still have the worst to come... his death anniversary.

This memorial at the church was not only for my brother but for others that have passed this year too and we just know we would have spent the whole time in tears instead of remembering how great he was.

dont think bad of me for not going, but if you knew what an outgoing person my brother was, you would know like us he wouldnt have wanted all this fuss!

So i am sorry for you all thinking of me today, when it wasnt neccessary xx

Anyways back to my quit...........

Have not had many cravings this weekend at all which i think is blooming brilliant, of course i know there are going to be many more of them to come, but i am so ready now lol

Was talking with hubby earlier and he told me he was proud and thought i was doing brilliantly although he said he was getting pissed off for me moaning about the smell of his smoke...My reply was well give up then and the kids heard me saying it and all laid into him lol talk about pressure!!

right catch you all tomorrow

Snowie xx

[nsd_user663_13507]

dont think bad of me for not going, but if you knew what an outgoing person my brother was, you would know like us he wouldnt have wanted all this fuss!

So i am sorry for you all thinking of me today, when it wasnt neccessary xx

We would not think badly of you at all, totally your choice, but still feel for you knowing the enotions you were going through. Neccessary, yes indeed. x

[nsd_user663_9220]

Thank You Tia ((hugs))

My Emotions are all over the place at times :eek:

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Well everyone, what a flipping grotty morning today!!

It has done nothing but pour down here and i had loads to do, only boring stuff like shopping and getting youngest ones hair cut but looks like i will be staying in now, so will be a struggle today, but will try and keep busy.

Hope everyone is well?

Snowie x

[nsd_user663_5119]

Hey chick...only just catching up on my reading (and at work - ooops!!), but sorry I didn't see that you were gonna have a tough weekend, else would have written to you with big hugs and support. Hope you are okay chick.

xx

[nsd_user663_16968]

Good morning my little friend Snow

Please dont think that any of us would think it bad of you for not going, you knew your brother better than anyone and he would be proud that you decided to remember him as out going and not in a sad way at all.

I for one cant feel what you feel right now but remember as i have said before your not alone and never will be. We are all like a big family here for you too so when you need us just ((((SHOUT))))

Anyhow, as for OH and his smoking well he will give up when he is ready, i can remember my OH stopping and then people laying into me for not doing the same, but to be honest i let the comments go over my head. I am now clearer in my mind as are you so stay strong and whatever you do dont make a mountain out of your OH still doing the deed as it could cause a wedge Hun. It did for me for such a long time.

Enjoy the rest of the day

LOL