Cut down over 2-3 days last week from smoking 20+ cigarettes a day from first thing in the morning until last thing at night. Had 1 or 2 at the end of the day last Friday and Saturday (in combination with gum, mainly to *prove* a cigarette didn't give me a buzz - and it didn't, even after going to the pub I didn't 'miss' them, presumably because the gum had already had the effect of keeping me topped up).
I found days 1-3 entirely smoke free quiet easy; paradoxically, because I've read the first few days, when your nicotine levels drop and fade away to a non-existent/minimal level, are the worst. I just thought 'I don't want to smoke any more.' All very rational.
Had the smoking dream last night and awoke a few times - probably due to this? - and today started well, even going to the gym for a couple of hours.
Then this afternoon I've been a bit out of sorts; I know I shan't go and buy any cigarettes, but I've been feeling worried that I'd slip up, that my determination not to smoke again will go into reverse out of sheer bloody-mindedness on my part.
I wonder whether that's because I've got the house to myself for a few days and so am spending quite a few hours each day alone??
PS: I'm a teacher, btw, midway through the summer holidays, so no work to distract/aggravate me - reckon I'll feel better in 3.5 weeks time when I'm back in the classroom?
PPS: Sorry for the poor quality of the prose, more a stream of consciousness because their are just so many questions and concentration is not A1.
PPPS: What a good website; been reading through lots of posts.