Hi to all of those who remember me. And to those that are new quitters. This will be a short post as you know I can ramble on. Can't even remember my last quit, think it was a few weeks ago. It went really well for 12 days and then after a glass of wine or 10 (exaggeration) with my chain-smoking sister, I cracked and gave up giving up. Total failure. But I was having a look at the forums for inspiration over the last few days and decided to give it one last go. Thanks to those who notified me and asked how it was going. Only saw them today (Jamangie , was one and maybe pixie?, sorry only glanced at it). Thanks a lot, appreciate it. This concern really helped me and so here I am back at day one. I am nervous due to being a serial quitter, but am determined to succeed this time. I have so many reasons to quit, they wouldn't fit on a page. My health is pretty good, which is one of them. I disgust myself by actively ruining my body with poison when I think of all the people with illnesses not self-inflicted. It is not clever or cool.
So I now have my trusty patch on. This is fine during the day as a security blanket, but when I go out to a party, my first thought is "damn I am not smoking and everyone (or so it always seems) is. I usually end up ripping it off and feeling a sort of relief that i am free of it. then I light a fag and actually feel sick. Crazy , isn't it!!! A powerful drug to be sure.
Anyway, to all other back to square oners, let's do it this time. My mantra now is "I am not allowed to smoke" This worked for me when I gave up for 10 years (although , only needed to use it in the first few days). My mental strength has obviously diminished drastically since then, so i hope it works this time round.
Thanks to all of you, without this forum, I honestly don't think I could face another attempt. Giving up fags has to be one of the most lonely things you ever do in life. Quite ironic as smoking fags is one of the sociable activities since the smoking ban.
Said I wouldn't ramble, but feel better for it.
Thanks for all your help and keep going!