Im on day 59 and im starting to find it hard going again, I thought it was getting easier, I posted on day 48 that it was but im struggling again.
The problem is, My quit buddy who relapsed after 2 weeks. I thought I didnt mind, I didnt feel that he wanted to stop anyway.
Thing is he has just switched to roll ups and since has found his ADDICTION much cheaper, Hes got a new world of buying Zippo's and tobacco tins and its really getting to me.
My drive was that so far stopping smoking has saved me £204. Which is great! What a saving, What an achievement. But in the back of my mind all I can think is that if I smoked roll ups it wouldnt cost me that much and really I havnt saved £204 at all????
I really wasnt expecting this massive crave to come, I thought I had got everything under control and im really dissapointed with myself.
I know I dont want to smoke again, I want to quit (which is why ive gone through 59 days) but im getting really tired.
I have some weird delusion of what smoking rollups is like, I know what it was really like because I used to smoke them back a few years ago.
It was great when you were sitting at a table in a pub, getting all the gear out and rolling a few, but what was it like when driving! Bloody deadly! what was it like when you were walking, Can you hold this? How many times have I said that?!
I dunno, Hold in there for a good day I suppose