OPEN THE DOOR THE PENT HOUSE I'M HERE AT LAST
Its day one of year 2
I have posted this in Day 1 section as well as 1 year. I hope this helps any one who maybe struggling.
I can’t believe I am here, one year on. Not because I doubted I would ever stop smoking, I knew I’d stop smoking, one way or another eventually. No the reason I’m surprised is that I smoked in the first place and for so long.
It’s easier now, looking back but why did I ever smoke?
To give myself confidence. To make me look cool in front of the opposite sex, ok so I could get some sex really. I enjoyed it. There was nothing better than a smoke after a meal. The day had Y in it.
Now I’ve stopped I’m not some nervous wreck that can’t talk to people as I’ve lost all my confidence and looking for my next fix of nicotine. I never really looked cool with a fag hanging out of my mouth, just can’t pull that look off.
The feeling you get from saying I don’t smoke after you have been offered a cigarette is out of this world. Far better than the dizzy sick feeling you get from inhaling smoke.
Now I’ve stopped, I smell better, look better, feel better and have a lot more money.
My reason for giving up, wasn’t my health, truth is I didn’t care about that, I could still do my fitness test and beat guys 10 to 15 years younger than me. I gave up for the money, cause I’m a greedy sod. Since stopping, I’ve got loads of new CDs DVDs starting my diving courses and been on holiday.
It hasn’t been easy getting here, and I know all of you reading this on day one two or three are going to say well it’s harder for me than it was for you. I so said that, “you’re lucky it was so easy this is killing me” Truth is it wasn’t. Each time I had a trigger flare off in my head, I had to make a choice, this quit and there’s been loads before, I’ve made a long line of choices; I chose not to have one.
Every time I said no or gone and sat in darkened room by myself and brooded I got a little stronger each time,
Now after 1 year or 12 months or 365 days which ever you count it I can confidently say I Don’t Smoke and I here with a little help from my friends.