I had a dream last night that I smoked a cigarette. It was quite horrible, I felt really guilty in the dream and the sense of failure was utterly real. It took me quite some time after waking up to accept that it had been a dream and that I hadn't actually had a cigarette. It was weird.
It's the first smoking-related dream that I've had since I quit but I was kind of expecting it because I've had similar kinds of dreams about alcohol since I had to stop drinking that three years ago. The drinking dreams don't bother me any more and I'm getting those less and less frequently as time goes by.
The way I see it, as long as the drinking (or smoking) feels wrong in the dream then the dream is not really about me wanting a drink or a cigarette, it's about my addiction wanting that drink/cigarette. If I ever have a drinking/smoking dream where I'm happy to be drinking/smoking again, then I'll worry.
My addiction is a part of me over which the rest of me has no control. I accepted that a long time ago about my drinking and I'm trying to do the same now with my smoking. If my addiction want to try to communicate with me using freaky dreams then fine, they're only dreams.
Like I said, I'm used to the drinking dreams now but the smoking dream was new and centred around new issues and new feelings and it did freak me out a bit even though I was expecting it.
Anyone else had similar experiences?