Hi, new to the forum but we share a common ground.
I need to get this off my chest ( no pun intended ) and what better place I think that here, where we share common ground. So if I go on , please bear with me.
I need to quit.
I have smoked (properly, ie inhaling) since I was 17 and I am now 35.
I can't recollect the last day I spent without taking nicotine in some sort of form. Whenever I have stopped, it's been on patches or lozenges. I hasn't made me stop.
So I ask myself why do I need to quit?
Basically, all the usual stuff , ie my health, money and the general sense of self loathing.
However I have a young daughter now and a fiancee who hates me smoking. She can smell it on me even if I haven't smoked for hours. Something about metal in my breath...
Worst still, is she stopped dead 3 years ago with very little problem and can't understand why I can't.
So , how am I going to go about it?
I have read Allen Carr and watched the video, in fact I could probably quote the half the book from memory. What the guy says makes perfect sense, but alas I still haven't stopped...
I have done a hypnosis session but that failed dismally. I am not very open to suggestion and actually sat through the session completely conscious...
So why, have I failed so far I ask myself ?
I think the underlying reason is a sense of rebellion. When I started smoking, it annoyed my parents. It annoy's my fiancee. It's really immature but it is still there subconsciously.
I think "Why should I stop, I enjoy it and who are you to stop me doing something I enjoy?"
But I don't really enjoy it. It is a habit, an addiction.
I enjoy going to the pub, working out but can quite happily not do either for weeks.
So I am here on this forum. I am going to stop tomorrow without any patches/ lozenges or anything else and take the hit.
Allen Carr goes on about the withdrawal being mild. I disagree, and that's why I have failed I think. I get light headed, my feet feel like they are boiling (probably improved circulation) and I start feeling depressed. I suffered with depression as a kid and the feeling is the same.
But I have to do it.
Sorry for rambling on but I needed to get this off my chest and would appreciate any feedback.