A smoker who isn't smoking??? ARGH!

Well, made it to silly little day 3! I just hope all the needing, wanting, itching for just one last ciggy will go away. All of the constant internal battles with myself to keep going, and dont give up... i want that to go away! I dont want to have to walk away from people because I'm just too damn wound up and ratty to think logically.

I want the feeling of something being missing to go away.

I know its only been 3 days, but when will it ease off? I can seriously see why people give up the fight during the first week or so... Its so bloody hard! And now i'm tired of having to constantly remind myself of why i'm doing this.

At the moment i feel like a smoker who isn't smoking... What i NEED is to feel like a nonsmoker who is living.

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  • Well, made it to silly little day 3! I just hope all the needing, wanting, itching for just one last ciggy will go away. All of the constant internal battles with myself to keep going, and dont give up... i want that to go away! I dont want to have to walk away from people because I'm just too damn wound up and ratty to think logically.

    I want the feeling of something being missing to go away.

    I know its only been 3 days, but when will it ease off? I can seriously see why people give up the fight during the first week or so... Its so bloody hard! And now i'm tired of having to constantly remind myself of why i'm doing this.

    At the moment i feel like a smoker who isn't smoking... What i NEED is to feel like a nonsmoker who is living.

    know what you mean Needacuppa just these first few days are difficult fighting constant battles with the demons some they win mostly you win ..... do not lose the war you are winning easily now are they are just fading away but keep on telling yourself why you are doing this this time next week you will be advising new people about the first few days as you have come through yours :)

  • Hi needacuppa :D

    Sorry you're finding it so tough just now but stick with it I promise it starts getting easier very soon these first dew days are the worst

    After that it's just the odd days that get a bit tough read the posts and the links they really will help you so much

    Drinking water helps the craves as does keeping busy, or doing something anything as a distraction

    It's normal to be ratty and wound up this early in a quit but no one can put a time limit on it as we're all different and so are our quits of course

    Love

    Marg xx

  • Thank you both,

    And to be honest i think i am winning. Just through the day i get that feeling you know? And its getting me down. But dont get me wrong, theres no going back now. I aint putting myself through these 3 days again! heh :p Nope! its done and its as simple as that.

    I think i'm gonna clean again... Cleaning is good!

  • Yes, the I am going through this again thing is what keeps me a non-smoker.

  • Well, made it to silly little day 3!

    There is nothing silly about getting to day 3 - it's a big achievement. I know this, because this is the first time I've done it in 30 years.

    It does get better, and that spaced out, hollow, missing a limb sensation actually goes quite quickly. Not sure at what point you start to feel like a non-smoking person. Not quite there yet.

    Keep going - you're doing great:)

  • Need a cuppa

    Well done for getting to Day 3, it really is an achievemnent, give yourself some praise you deserve it. Yes it is hard no use trying to tell you otherwise but it does get better and when I started I got fed up with members saying that, but its true, it does get better.

    On my really bad days I would say "I will do another hour and then see how I feel", and just kinda kept going.

    Dee

  • You're doing brilliantly - 3 days CT is a serious achievement. I couldn't have done that, I needed the Champix. If you get the urge, read what you wrote - do you want to go through the last 3 days again? You know the answer to that one.

    I'm 36 days free, and it is actually easier now, but I still think about them, just don't need a smoke the way I used to.

  • And now i'm tired of having to constantly remind myself of why i'm doing this

    Don't think about why you are doing this, only that you absolutely need to.

    Every hour, of every day the tobacco companies are making billions of $$$ out of folk who even now are smoking their products. All that money, up in smoke.. and thats just the money. Do you think they care a jot if you got really sick off their products? No. Because even if smoking put an end to you .. there would be a 14-16 year old ready to start and take your place buying their products. They are quids in, quite literally.

    So the companies that supply those products really in truth don't give a rats backside about the damage their products are doing to you, only that those products make them alot of $$$.

    And their products are so popular not becuase they are nice.. not because they actually really do that much for you... but because they are addictive in the cruelest sense. Nicotine has you believe you need it alot more than you actually do.. and for years of smoking you really do end up convinced you can't do without it. The reality is though.. you can do without nicotine.. and all you need to do at this point is continue as you are doing here and 'JUST DON'T SMOKE'

    Yes its difficult at this stage of your quit, lord knows it is.. but take a look around the forums here.. there is folk doing exactly as you are doing every day.. and with each passing day, they feel better about themselves, their achievement and thats quite early on in their quits too. Honestly if i could trade you a day of how it feels later in the quit and i could just do a day of your early days for you, i would , because then you would see that with just perseverence, some endurance and patience you can have things much more management and indeed.. happier for you.

    Just stick at it.. really, thats it.. stick at it... the best is yet to be, you just have to give it a chance and believe in yourself.

  • Jase this is a great post and so right. 5 weeks in and I already feel so much better. Perseverance is all that is needed.

  • hi needacuppa

    i was constanly itching and dieing for 1 in the early days. But i overcame it in ways of keeping my fingers busy and doing this that requires taking my mind of cigs...haveing fun as well.

    I hate reading but try that

    or if your like me, play the PS3 non-stop

    good luck needacuppa

  • My OH got me into playing some facebook games while i've quit this time.. got me into games like mafia wars, farmtown/ville, cafe world, godfather and many more.. those games take a bit of time to play but the nice thing about them is you can leave gaps in between play very easily and mess around with them when you want.

    I heartily recommend computer games to folk who are quitting too.. keeps the mind busy and the hands too. Perfect.

    I haven't got a PS3, but i did buy a Nintendo Wii earlier this year, thats fun too.

  • Made it!... get in Day 4! WOO!

    Ah thanks everyone... Yeah yesterday was a bit of a battle, but i did it... woo woo!

    Tis Day 4 now... feeling awesome :p

    Oooh, the talk of computer games. Yeah tell me about it.. I got street fighter 4 and left for dead 1 and 2... not sure if anyones heard of them... seriously good therapy me thinks! Having a bad day? Go shoot some zombies and kick some ass!! hehe! :D

  • Ah thanks everyone... Yeah yesterday was a bit of a battle, but i did it... woo woo!

    Tis Day 4 now... feeling awesome :p

    Oooh, the talk of computer games. Yeah tell me about it.. I got street fighter 4 and left for dead 1 and 2... not sure if anyones heard of them... seriously good therapy me thinks! Having a bad day? Go shoot some zombies and kick some ass!! hehe! :D

    Kicking Zombie and Nicotine Ass loving your work Neddacuppa :D 4 days already you have so done brilliant hard part done now.... keep strong and most of all keep kicking ass :)

  • HI Needacuppa :D

    You're doing just fine on day 4 keep it going

    Love

    Marg xx

  • Ooh yes, left for dead 1 & 2 are indeed good games.

    Congrats on surviving the 3rd day and nice to see you getting on well with the 4th too.. one good thing about going through those early days is you don't never want to have to do them again.. some of us have done them days quite a few times now, but i'm sure glad they are tough days really otherwise you wouldn't felt you were quitting something properly.

  • cant forget streets of rage on the megadrive:D

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