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[nsd_user663_4317]

Not a happy bunny(still in Easter mode hehe), dont know why I'm laughing probably cry otherwise. I've had a bad day to say the least and I could do with my old buddies rizla and baccy at the moment *shakes head* no I dont I just think I do!!

1) Went to hospital found out need surgery

2) Fell coming out of hospital, dropped phone and smashed it

3) Partner decided he needs "space" probably due to withdrawal arguments or the 7 year itch

4) Sister said she was coming over at 230pm texted at 530 to say she didnt realise how late it was?????? seriously its like waiting for the repair man waiting in for my sister

5) Had to deal with 2 kids under 5 bouncing off of walls (easter egg induced) waiting in for now least favourite sister in the world when we could have been scoffing icecreams in the park grr

so I'm having the mother of all craves and I thought i'd be ok by now(silly me) but obviously I would want a cig cos that wouldve been the knee jerk reaction. Now I cant what do I do?

Right I'm off to do yoga inthe bath with loads of aromatherapy, a good book, box of chocs, bottle of wine, a whale cd and any other relaxation suggestions would be greatly appreciated!!

[nsd_user663_4196]

Awww, Angela, i want to just send you a really big hug, you been going through all this and you havent smoked, well done for not giving in, what a shit day you having, but you do probably know deep down that smoking wouldnt change any of these things, first if you need an operation, then smoking is going to make it harder on you and your recovery - if you are not smoking you giving yourself a much better recovery, your oh if he wants a break, then you will be stronger, if he cant see that this is something you want and need to do and he should be supporting you through this not giving you more shit (sorry just my opinion), your phone well sometimes we need a good reason to treat ourselves to a new one, so maybe you could treat yourself!

Be good to yourself, pamper yourself like you say and whatever shit comes your way stay strong and be proud that you havent smoked (even when at times you feel like you really want to) and things will get better, x

take care x big hug coming your way x

tracy21

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Not a happy bunny(still in Easter mode hehe), dont know why I'm laughing probably cry otherwise. I've had a bad day to say the least and I could do with my old buddies rizla and baccy at the moment *shakes head* no I dont I just think I do!!

1) Went to hospital found out need surgery

2) Fell coming out of hospital, dropped phone and smashed it

3) Partner decided he needs "space" probably due to withdrawal arguments or the 7 year itch

4) Sister said she was coming over at 230pm texted at 530 to say she didnt realise how late it was?????? seriously its like waiting for the repair man waiting in for my sister

5) Had to deal with 2 kids under 5 bouncing off of walls (easter egg induced) waiting in for now least favourite sister in the world when we could have been scoffing icecreams in the park grr

so I'm having the mother of all craves and I thought i'd be ok by now(silly me) but obviously I would want a cig cos that wouldve been the knee jerk reaction. Now I cant what do I do?

Right I'm off to do yoga inthe bath with loads of aromatherapy, a good book, box of chocs, bottle of wine, a whale cd and any other relaxation suggestions would be greatly appreciated!!

Hi Angela

What a shitty day you've had to be sure but well done for not giving in to that urge but you know deep down those Rizla's and baccy were not your freinds at all

I'm so sorry you need an operation but Tracy is right about that you know

I hope you didn't hurt yourself when you fell coming out of the hospital although I'm sorry you broke your phone

I really don't know what to say about OH needing space except that it strikes me he is very insensitive to say the least, you need sutgery, and he needs space suddenly oh boy

I am sorry as well that your sister let you down what a bummer

Oh dear my Grandson was like that on Sunday but at least your sister is coming

And to top it all you have a massive crave and yes your right about the crave because before your quit you'd have reached for a fag so the Nico :eek: Demons Pounced

Do as you said and pamper yourself with all those goodies, you certainly deserve it and I hope you'll feel much better tomorrow

Love

Marg xxxxxxxx

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Thanx T youre a likkle love

In the cold light of day I know im probably better off without cigs and the bloke and a new phone would be nice. But I just feel like crying at the moment boohoo. My phones back has come off and is very scratched so is in a worse state than me so I should thank my lucky stars.

Youre right about the op, only been in hospital with my kids so am a bit scared but smokings not good when u need an operation, could done with a bit of support from OH but he goes an leaves me werhay.

Thanx for the big hug needed that and tomorrow i'll probably feel embarrassed about posting my probs

Glad I havent had a cig even though i really really want one or six!!

xxxangelaxxx

[nsd_user663_4196]

Hey angela, you cry love and let it all out, and you dont ever need to be embarrassed for posts, we all human and have some shitty times, if i could wave a magic wand and make you feel better then i would, your oh needs a good kick up the bum! He will so regret not supporting you 100% when you need it most, not much help i know but you need someone who is going to give you what you need, i know what you mean about hyper kids, i got four and there are times i think a cig is needed but it wont solve anything, you are strong, your a woman, (sorry blokes) you have had kids, you can do this, have a good cry let it out and go get some pampering, glass of wine in bath sounds good, thinking of you x

tracy21

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Thanx Marg, you always know the right things to say, you should be a counsellor xx

Your support means so much.

I deleted the first post, didnt want to put people on a downer. Then I read a few posts and thought you know what this is real and someone might be feeling like me and knowing they not alone is a big help.

Stopping smoking seems like its a catalyst for sorting other things in my life, if I can stop smoking now I can achieve other things

Just feel a bit scared and alone been a bit of a mad day, but tomorrow its another day and I have my beautiful kids and a knackered phone that could do with surgery like its owner hehe xxx