So many positive stories on these pages, which is great news! Why did any of us ever start smoking.... Anyway. I quit almost ten months ago. I quit because my younger brother suggested that I read Allen Carr's easyway, I did and quit just like that. To begin with it was amazing! I felt so energised, I felt amazing! I moved house, changed car and felt that I was a new person. I had no assoiciations. Now this is where the problems arise. I am not sure who the hell I am now?
My life was so based with cigarettes. My days would be full of highs and then crashing lows - as I craved each cigarette. These days, my life is constant. And... dare I say it, dull. I am not so outgoing and I never call anyone. My partner has even suggested I take up the cigs again! I just dont feel myself. In the past 10 months I have had two cigs. Both times I felt like a failiure and felt even more depressed.... I know, I can still use the phone, still go for a walk outside... but its just not the same.
I am at a crossroads now. Its been 10 months and I have no physical cravings. But, I miss them. I feel like I am old before my time now... Any advice would be great. I am not about to fall off the wagon, but why am I still thinking about it?