Still Going Strong

[nsd_user663_2695]

Hi All,

Thought i would swing by to see how everyone is doing, i see some have had small lapses.

Any way still smoke free here and wish good luck to you all.

Gary

[nsd_user663_2421]

Well done mate keep up the good work. let us know how its going mate....

[nsd_user663_2637]

Nice one - I think there is still about 8 or 9 of us left.

Im finding it hard - I can't stop being horrible to people that mean a lot to. I feel like i've got Tourettes.

I also feel like I am in a bad place. I don't want to smoke again, the smell makes me ill. But I also don't want to feel like I do in my head - its like I am a different person, not a happy one either.

Never mind

[nsd_user663_2621]

Nice one - I think there is still about 8 or 9 of us left.

Im finding it hard - I can't stop being horrible to people that mean a lot to. I feel like i've got Tourettes.

I also feel like I am in a bad place. I don't want to smoke again, the smell makes me ill. But I also don't want to feel like I do in my head - its like I am a different person, not a happy one either.

Never mind

hey mate

what do you mean by feeling a different person? Whats happenin in there? I am doing ok still - hardly ever think about smoking til i see it. Just now walked down the high street and noticed a very pretty girl sitting outside the cafe with a capuccino, on the phone, with a packet of malboro on the table and one going in the ashtray. She looked very cool and relaxed. I was jealous. But i dont want to go back there - those days are in the past.

[nsd_user663_1704]

Well done Gary

Big hugs Sutty x x x x x x x x

It realy does change the state of mind, temporarily!! thats what you need to keep a hold of. Things will get much betterer

[nsd_user663_2637]

hey mate

what do you mean by feeling a different person? Whats happenin in there? I am doing ok still - hardly ever think about smoking til i see it. Just now walked down the high street and noticed a very pretty girl sitting outside the cafe with a capuccino, on the phone, with a packet of malboro on the table and one going in the ashtray. She looked very cool and relaxed. I was jealous. But i dont want to go back there - those days are in the past.

Its hard to explain. Its like if someone says something not 100% to my liking, I look into it and then think they're taking the piss and get wound up with it.

I don't want to smoke and can deal without the fags but I'm genuinely seeing things differently. Its not just being snappy, its my mind changing its view on people. I really wanted to not be married this weekend - and thats not an anger thing!!

[nsd_user663_2421]

Its hard to explain. Its like if someone says something not 100% to my liking, I look into it and then think they're taking the piss and get wound up with it.

I don't want to smoke and can deal without the fags but I'm genuinely seeing things differently. Its not just being snappy, its my mind changing its view on people. I really wanted to not be married this weekend - and thats not an anger thing!!

AW sutty i know how you feel. Its the loss. i felt bewilderd angry and frustrated for a while. The emoti**** and mental addiction is doing it. Get through this patch and you will be fine. I know its not the wanting a cig at this point. Its the daily loss of a part of your life. It has your head all over the place. Break through this part of the hbbit and your there. stay with us mate your gona be ok xxx

[nsd_user663_2621]

Its hard to explain. Its like if someone says something not 100% to my liking, I look into it and then think they're taking the piss and get wound up with it.

I don't want to smoke and can deal without the fags but I'm genuinely seeing things differently. Its not just being snappy, its my mind changing its view on people. I really wanted to not be married this weekend - and thats not an anger thing!!

hmmmm thats interesting. I am no expert but on one hand is it possible that you would be having these feelings anyway, i mean if you hadnt stopped smoking? Could you have changed your view on people anyway? Could it be that you dont want to be married anymore - period. Maybe trying to attribute these things to smoking is a red herring. On the other hand stopping smoking makes so many chemical changes to our bodies that its hard to know what goes through our heads anymore.

But i'll say this - if you are on cold turkey then you are no longer addicted to nicotine - its not there anymore and the withdrawal symptoms will be gone. So maybe these feelings are indeed the real Sutty!!

[nsd_user663_2637]

Thanks for the thoughts!

I think maybe PaulC is right. Surely the symptoms would have lessened a bit by now.

Maybe I should face it that I will end up either in prison for road rage or an old peoples home cursing the staff for trying to help me get out my chair.

I will not smoke though, I have no desire to smoke at all (thats maybe a bit of a lie), just wish it didn't have to change my life so much.

[nsd_user663_2176]

Even when the nicotine's gone it takes a long time to get back to normal. Don't write yourself off just yet!

[nsd_user663_2291]

Well Done Gary x

[nsd_user663_1998]

Sutty and PaulC, I dont want to be shouted down but I think that you are reading too much into it and perhaps you should stay married a bit longer

It took me MONTHS to stop feeling angry, that my whole life had changed for the worse, that I hated the person I seemed to have become etc etc. I felt that my whole personality had changed through stopping smoking and for the worse.

Who knows what all the many chemiclals do to you in fags and when you dont get them anymore, what that effect has on you. Its not just nicotine so you might well be free of nicotine but what about the rest? Its all shite that youve put in your body. Your just slowly starting to get rid. You need a bit more dopamine release in the brain which you can get in lots of other ways (Class As spring to mind - only joking :)) like exercise or great sex.

I still get wound up about things 7 months on (but much less now). Just stick with it PLEASE

[nsd_user663_2637]

Sutty and PaulC, I dont want to be shouted down but I think that you are reading too much into it and perhaps you should stay married a bit longer

It took me MONTHS to stop feeling angry, that my whole life had changed for the worse, that I hated the person I seemed to have become etc etc. I felt that my whole personality had changed through stopping smoking and for the worse.

Who knows what all the many chemiclals do to you in fags and when you dont get them anymore, what that effect has on you. Its not just nicotine so you might well be free of nicotine but what about the rest? Its all shite that youve put in your body. Your just slowly starting to get rid. You need a bit more dopamine release in the brain which you can get in lots of other ways (Class As spring to mind - only joking :)) like exercise or great sex.

I still get wound up about things 7 months on (but much less now). Just stick with it PLEASE

Thats good advice - as I long as I know it doesn't last forever. Will try the lots more sex thing and see if that works.

[nsd_user663_2623]

I'm in the same boat here myself. I've made it this long in stopping smoking, but I just feel different in some way. Maybe i keep thinking I lost the cigs as a friend...but really i have gained so much more. Let's hang in there folks!