Hi everyone. Fourth day now, feeling pretty good although I have some weird liquid going down my throat. I've had a bad cold for the past few weeks so maybe it's going away and taking some minky tar with it too. I have my first gym lesson since I stopped smoking today. We're going for a walk, that'll be nice and I won't have to feel like a leper because I can keep up with the rest of them.
Mmmmm and by now my body should be nicotine free, resulting in no physical withdrawl, although I have a slow metabolism so it wouldn't surprise me.
I had a dream last night that I was smoking, and in my dream I asked my friend 'why am I smoking? How did I start smoking again?' and she said that I'd been drinking and had just lit up a smoke, and in my dream I regretted it. Everytime I post in here it's all about me.. how are you lot doing?
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You're doing so brilliantly so keep it up. I think the yucky stuff in the throat is quite normal - I only smoked on average 5 a day and I used to get yucky stuff in the morning also. Going on your first gym session will be really invigorating and remind you how good it is to be alive - feeling all that adrenalin pumping round your bod! The weather is good for a walk - slight chill which helps to wipe the cobwebs away.
Thanks for asking Harley - I am not to bad - really struggling at times quite badly but just about hanging in there by my fingertips!!!! Life is such a rollercoaster and mine seems to be on mega speed all of the time which just increases my stress inside. Never mind - the plus side is what i do to try and help is listen to music and it has been really brilliant to just listen to loads of tunes, pump it up good and loud and sing like bonkers!!
Have a great one Harley and let us know how the gym sess went.
What an up and down day.. this morning, bright and early the maintenance man brought me some white paint to paint the cupboards in my flat. The woman who lived here before me obviously smoked and all the cupboard doors were yellow (if that's what side smoke can do, I wonder what a smokers lungs look like :S). Anyhoo when I got back from my gym class (it went well thanks, was nice to walk) I painted my cupboards and they look rather spiffing. Nice and white, not yellow anymore. After doing that I sat down for a bit then depression started setting in. I went to one class today (I should have had 4) not good. I think it's not just giving up smoking, I get like this every autumn so it could be S.A.D, either way it's affecting everything. Up, down, up up down.. I should resume normal life but I'm getting sick of being in classes, I'd quit school but then maybe the only reason I'm feeling like this is cos I'm a bit down after quitting smoking. So difficult to tell where one thing ends and another starts.
Sun lamps Not too early for SAD over here Buffy, the darkness is already closing in and the trees are changing and the only thing to look forward to is christmas lol. The maintenance people didn't paint the cupboards cos they're lazy bums, and since I was the one who asked if I could paint them cos they were mingy yellow.. they just dropped off the paint, a brush and turps. Cupboards look good. I hear what you're saying about education, the diploma I'm going for now isn't actually that important, it's mainly something to do to fill time till next year when I can carry out my other plans. Stress management or yoga or something might help me chill out either that or 48 hour days, that would be cool, or if I won the lottery.. I guess I just want to feel normal and function, I realise it'll take time to heal and recover but time is a luxury and they'll kick me out of school if I don't buck up my ideas.
I hope I'll manage them Buffy Think all I need is a good boot. It is a bit depressing when things start dying. I'm a spring baby, I like light green, not orange and brown. Ooooh I know what I need! Last autumn I bought three new plants and felt so great, cos I look at them when I start feeling crap. Now I can go and spend the money I would have spent on fags, on some nice things that give me a warm fuzzy feeling.
I hope I'll manage them Buffy Think all I need is a good boot. It is a bit depressing when things start dying. I'm a spring baby, I like light green, not orange and brown. Ooooh I know what I need! Last autumn I bought three new plants and felt so great, cos I look at them when I start feeling crap. Now I can go and spend the money I would have spent on fags, on some nice things that give me a warm fuzzy feeling.
Yay!! I think that's a great idea x x
Retail therapy is a great lift in it's own right!!
My oh my... during the past four days I've been drinking a lot of diluted juice. I ran out of juice today and ended up round at my friends begging for some diluted juice like some kind of juice junky. I was getting rather emotional about my diluted juice eyes filling up and everything Luckily my friend is great and he handed me a bottle of Robinsons Apple and blackcurrent. Can't believe how desperate I got lol.
Did your eyes fill up? lmao what an emotional rollercoaster this all is eh? Even now I feel like having a good bubble I just had a chat with my mum on Skype, she stopped smoking after 15 years of smoking and was telling me about this 'smokers flu' people get when they stop smoking.. she said my granda was coughing up tar for weeks, and she had a few weeks of feeling like she had the flu. Did any of you experience the same thing? She said that after that flu you never want to smoke again as long as you keep the memory of that tar stuff. Sounds.. not good, but good if it's vivid enough to stop us wanting to go through quitting again.
Sounds like I've got a fun few weeks ahead of me. Think I'll just write a big sign and stick it on my head. "I've stopped smoking, I'll be myself again in a few months, please wait till then." Might get me off homework
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