First of all just wanna say that JT is not my bag but when faced at a couple of hours notice with a couple of free tickets worth £60 each and no better plan, I'm not gonna turn that down and in any case a big event is always great atmosphere and this was no exception. The O2 stadium is pretty impressive so I look forward to seeing someone I really like playing there.
How grateful was I though that I was a non smoker cos we got in the venue at 7.00pm and left at 11.30pm and of course there was no possibility of being able to smoke at all for that 4 and a half hours.
Because I'd quit smoking it simply wasn't an issue, but had I not I would have been absolutely climbing the walls and all I would've been thinking about the whole time was how long till I could get out and have a fag. Life is gonna be so much more difficult for smokers from now on and so it's just gonna be a whole lot easier to learn to live without fags.
Day 19 for me today. Had a bit of a shakey day yesterday, not because of chemical withdrawal, but oddly because I started questioning whether I actually want to be a non smoker. It was probably the nicotine demon messing with my head but I started thinking that maybe being a smoker was part of my essential character and that wholesome and healthy was just not me and that somehow by being a non smoker I would be a bit less interesting, a bit less carefree maybe, and a bit less me. Anyway thankfully I didn't fall for it and came home at the end of the night still a non smoker, but after a relatively easy ride so far, I woke up this morning a bit shaken because I realised I'd come very close to caving and that it's so not just about conquering the chemical addiction, i's such a complex multi dimensional problem to beat. Anyway I'm still clean and still motivated so hopefully won't encounter too many shakey moments like last night.
Good luck to all.
Dicky
Looking forward rather than looking back
So this is the view from the Penthouse
Back from holidays 😛
