First of all just wanna say that JT is not my bag but when faced at a couple of hours notice with a couple of free tickets worth £60 each and no better plan, I'm not gonna turn that down and in any case a big event is always great atmosphere and this was no exception. The O2 stadium is pretty impressive so I look forward to seeing someone I really like playing there.
How grateful was I though that I was a non smoker cos we got in the venue at 7.00pm and left at 11.30pm and of course there was no possibility of being able to smoke at all for that 4 and a half hours.
Because I'd quit smoking it simply wasn't an issue, but had I not I would have been absolutely climbing the walls and all I would've been thinking about the whole time was how long till I could get out and have a fag. Life is gonna be so much more difficult for smokers from now on and so it's just gonna be a whole lot easier to learn to live without fags.
Day 19 for me today. Had a bit of a shakey day yesterday, not because of chemical withdrawal, but oddly because I started questioning whether I actually want to be a non smoker. It was probably the nicotine demon messing with my head but I started thinking that maybe being a smoker was part of my essential character and that wholesome and healthy was just not me and that somehow by being a non smoker I would be a bit less interesting, a bit less carefree maybe, and a bit less me. Anyway thankfully I didn't fall for it and came home at the end of the night still a non smoker, but after a relatively easy ride so far, I woke up this morning a bit shaken because I realised I'd come very close to caving and that it's so not just about conquering the chemical addiction, i's such a complex multi dimensional problem to beat. Anyway I'm still clean and still motivated so hopefully won't encounter too many shakey moments like last night.
Good luck to all.
Dicky