This is how I feel after 15 days.

[nsd_user663_1921]

Well Hi All,

It’s been 15days now and I can’t really take it all in. I had a hell of a trip to get here. I will only hope

all this is worth it in the end. Family life has not been easy the last few weeks and it’s all my doing.

I feel very depressed some of the time, and my mood swings change very quickly. Before I stopped the weed I was pretty cool guy and now I snap at the wife and kids for the smallest of problems.

We had to brake the holiday and come home as I couldn’t take it any longer I just found anything and everything S;:T and I cried a lot just couldn’t stop myself.

I hate myself for it. Is this the real me or will the cool guy return soon? I’m finding that I don’t miss the weed that much. It’s just at times when I really need the weed. Twice I forgot that I had give up, went outside (never smoked in the flat) for a smoke and then became very depressed not to be able to have a quick smoke. How to the positive side to all this I DO FEEL BETTER about myself and my heath. I smell better, I kiss better (says the wife, no bad breath) and I feel like I can really do this. Just how long do all the negative side effects take to go away?

Any help you people can give will be brilliant thanks.

Ian.

München, Germany.

[nsd_user663_1930]

Well, I am no expert and I am having both good and bad days with this no smoking, however you have described the way I feel perfectly (I have given up for 10 days now).

However what I have found is that I am returning back to the person I was before starting smoking, and quite frankly that concerns me.

Just so everyone knows, before I started smoking I had a very volatile temper. Now although I was never violent against anyone I always took my anger out on in-animate objects (Likes cars, micro waves, doors etc...).

I would totally see red and the cost of the damage didn't even factor into my tantrum.

Now while smoking this horrible side of me never raised its ugly head, but since I have stopped my angry side is starting to come back, and quite frankly thats bothers me (Dropped the lid to the kettle on the floor yesterday, and it took alot of effect for me not to destory the kitchen).

So for what its worth (and my advice / comments are purely my own opinion) I would look at the kind of person you were before you started smoking and thats the kind of person you'll probably end up like (But more mature).

An old friend said something to me along time ago "You cannot change a persons nature". You can hide your nature but deep down its just sitting there waiting to come out, now I believe smoking can supress parts of a persons nature. In my case it held back my volatile temper, but unfortunately I will now have to try to control it through will power.

To summarize, if you are acting horribly now towards your family and before you started smoking you were not like this, then you will get through it and things will get better.

Its not the kind of advice that people on this forum want to hear, but i believe this to be a valid point...

[nsd_user663_1704]

I totaly agree with you Gav, I have also experienced a shorter length of my usual chilled laid back self.

But I have got back to the better me slowly as i am sure you both will too along with everyone else.

It is so hard this is a long road and it is so worth it for ourselves and the ones we love x x

The strength and honesty you have both shown and the fact that you have got so close and not given in must make you both dead proud of yourselves. That is what makes this support network work so well x x

Short term guilt on upsetting loved ones may feel pretty shitty but the long term feelings for us and our loved ones, if we continue to smoke ourselves to death are ........ well it doesn't bare thinking about does it? i want to cry so much that i won't think about it!

Don't beat yourselves up just remember to let those ones know that you are sorry and that you do care really your lucky to have their support x x ~Buffy x

[nsd_user663_1920]

I totaly agree with you Gav, I have also experienced a shorter length of my usual chilled laid back self.

But I have got back to the better me slowly as i am sure you both will too along with everyone else.

It is so hard this is a long road and it is so worth it for ourselves and the ones we love x x

The strength and honesty you have both shown and the fact that you have got so close and not given in must make you both dead proud of yourselves. That is what makes this support network work so well x x

Short term guilt on upsetting loved ones may feel pretty shitty but the long term feelings for us and our loved ones, if we continue to smoke ourselves to death are ........ well it doesn't bare thinking about does it? i want to cry so much that i won't think about it!

Don't beat yourselves up just remember to let those ones know that you are sorry and that you do care really your lucky to have their support x x ~Buffy x

Awsome advice and good luck