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I screwed up. Depressed and confused.

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Hey all, the Norseman is signin in. I messed up today, on No Smoking Day of all days. I was at the bar, and had a cigar with a buddy... I inhaled two puffs. There was another cigar later, and I inhaled one puff. Three total. Left a terrible aftertaste in my mouth, didn't do anything to me... but I am a failure. My girlfriend is dissapointed in me. I am now depressed.... I did not crave the nicotine, but... craved the art of smoking... and lit up. Now, I am kicking myself back to day one. Two weeks of hell for nothing. All the support i've given for nothing. All the preaching i've done on here for nothing. I am nothing, as I let the drug take over. I give up. Major decision time. Please somebody help me understand why i did what i did, and why i feel so bad about it, when I knew the consequences full out before I started. Well, i'll see you on day two.

Vike

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Learn From It

Hi Viking, well Ive said it before and Ill say it again.....there will be times when some of us digress onto the smoking path either a little or a lot (Or just a touch in your case).

The big thing is to pick yourself up and keep going (ask Ron). Doesnt warrant going back to Day 1 and would say it may just be sufficient to take a day off your no smoking tally at the most!

Biggest thing is to learn from the mistake, after all you cant class yourself as a smoker on just 3 puffs and from what you say I doubt its going to cause you to become a fully fledged smoker.

Keep going mate.....you owe it to yourself and dont be too dissapointed......your not the first and wont be the last and your still 100% against smoking so your well on your way to being a non smoker permenently!:o

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Hi

I don't know you well as I am only one Day 2, but you have given so many people so much support and encouragement. You have had a blip that is all. I agree, you don't need to go back to Day 1. After 24 hours if you think about it, we are all non-smokers as we havn't had any. You have had 3 puffs, that is all. You didn't like them anyway.

Perhaps the reason why we stop and start is we get a bit confident and think Oh, just tonight, I can stop when I want now, or we feel we are missing out on something, I don't know, but please don't beat yourself up when you have done so well.

:)

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Do not go back to day two!

Viking

Please listen to me!! I did the same as you last weekend, I shared a whole cigarette at a party because I had had a drink. I was so angry with myself the next morning but then thought, get over it, so what? I am not going back to day one because this is my 8th week dammit!

Forget it Viking, you messed up a tiny bit - today is a normal day in your giving up routine. We are all in this together - chin up

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Thought you had gone quiet ;)

Man you know as well as the rest of us how common it is to have an occasional slip up, as I said to ruby it's better to strive on than give in.

It does not constitute starting over. I can't remember the title of ruby's thread but you should read it as well as listening to her sound advice on this thread!

All the support I've given for nothing. All the preaching I've done on here for nothing.

Bull****! Your support and advice is sound and appreciated, to say it's all for nothing?! how very dare you!

Onwards and upwards Vike x x

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The jury has reached it's verdict Viking:

You are hereby fined the grand total of 1 day. :D

Now grit you're teeth and carry on, everyone knows the first few weeks are the worse, so don't be so tough on yourself!

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It's only my second day, so maybe shouldn't be sticking my oar in, :) but seems to me the others are right in what they're saying to you now.

Take heart, my friend, it was just a blip. Don't be too hard on yourself. You've done so well.

Cast it from your mind;) and fight the good fight. Sounds to me like you're only human like the rest of us, so don't beat yourself up over it. Just carry on.

(Hark at me. Sound like I've got all the angles covered. Hope you're still there for me if/when I mess up:eek: )

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