I hate to be full of negativity so much lately! But this week is just so so bad!
First my kids were off school ill Monday and Tuesday. Then I got it and broke my diet/calories Wednesday looking to comfort eat. Thursday I felt so dreadful I took the day off work and allowed myself to again demolish my self control and comfort eat even more! Friday (today) I was feeling ill but not as bad and was just going to 'get through the day' so I can rest up again on the weekend.
Well... This morning our pet bird was just suddenly floppy and obviously dying. Completely out the blue! He is very very special to us! Out of like 30 eggs I tried to hatch in July and august he was the only survivor. He was a Californian quail. He lived indoors and was cheeky and funny. When we got a puppy he decided he wanted to be like a puppy too and started chasing after balls and toys too! Every evening he would snuggle on my daughters lap or go sleep under her hair. So not just any old pet.
I decided to not go into work and get him to a vet asap. But three vets I phoned said quails are classed as an exotic bird and they wouldn't see him! Finally I got a number of a vet who would see him but the earliest would be 10.30am.
By 9am he died!
So I went to work. No point losing money. I cried on the way to work but pulled it together enough to work and I was glad to be busy.
Then at work ... I work in a care home.. My favourite old Lady has been ill too this week. She is an amazing woman! Really smart and full of great wisdom and advice. She is the one who first told me and encouraged me to do the 5:2 diet and really she was the one who started me on my weight loss journey! On Wednesday the nurses were taking her blood pressure and as I was waiting with her I felt like one would if waiting with their mum! They wanted to send her to hospital but she refused. She had visitors coming from across the country and refused to let them down! She is as wonderfully stubborn as she is wise lol.
Anyways today the doctor was called and I was told that he said it is unlikely she will make it over this weekend and that I should say my goodbyes to her whilst I can as I don't work weekend.
So that's two horrible things today! Plus I feel really ill again myself (high temp). I have stuck to my calories today (actually a little under to make up for wed/Thur). I was - am - very tempted to break it and have a takeaway! But I'm not really hungry and so far I have resisted. Which I'm quite proud of. My weight is already up this week (although still healthy bmi). But this niggly voice keeps nagging me, saying to not care and do it anyways....