Hello all,
As some of you have noticed, I’ve been mia for a few weeks, maybe even a month!? I just felt overwhelmed suddenly, and adding that I left my laptop outside in the pouring rain ( one disaster of many, showing where my headspace has been!) meant I wasn’t here, and, I wasn’t counting calories.
I think I needed that break. I was still eating well(ish) but enjoyed a few meals out with friends and my partner, I just wasn’t obsessively counting every calorie.
I also have stopped drinking midweek, and boy, that feels good!
So, I was slightly nervous of weighing myself this week, apprehensive of what I’d see.
During the week, it’s been around 61.9kg. A big drop - I’ve been struggling to stay at 62.3, and have been waiting to see it go up after my lapse.
Since yesterday, the scales are telling me I am 59.4kg. I have weighed myself about 7 times 😂
My mind is blown. I’m still very sceptical that it won’t jump up again, but I feel so proud of myself.
I’ve only ever been this light once before, and I only got there by treating myself very badly. When I started this journey, I remember telling my partner (and myself) I’d never been able to get to this weight healthily. But I have. I have! I cannot wait to see what the rest of the journey has in store for me, I still have a few kilos to go.
Well this post ended up rambling, but my intended point, was that even when things are crappy, and you’re not getting anywhere, please don’t give up, just give yourself a break. It’s a life long journey, not a 12 week sprint. 
And the advice so many give here to up your calories every now and then to trick your body, and re-start your metabolism clearly is sound advice!
Thanks to everyone who has helped me during the last few weeks of doubt and low mood. Thankyou so much.
Daily Diary for Friday 16 October 2020
Temptations and Pessimism…
Breakfasts - Weekday vs Weekend.
Calorie counting and needing help
