Having been told this week that my cholesterol level has suddenly rocketed after a life-time of being totally average, I have now learned from the NHS site that my BMI is 36.2 and I have 6 stone 8 lbs or 41.9 kg. In what dark room have I kept myself for the past years? I genuinely had not realised that things had got this bad. Day one of the twelve week programme begins tomorrow, alongside a 12 session fitness regime courtesy of Macmillan - I truly have to do this now......but ....and here it is, the dreaded but....I have spent a life-time hearing the words 'self-sabotage' every time I have stood 'inside' the fridge helping myself to its contents and gorging despite absolutely not wanting to eat what has found its way into my hands....and then my mouth. I really am going to need some support here....to stop me procrastinating and making excuses and actually do what my body needs: lose weight, get fitter and lower that cholesterol. No, I realise as I write this - it is not your support that can stop my procrastination - it has to be me who does that...but your encouragement will make it so much easier! Thank you!