Hi I am new to this forum although definitely not new to the struggles of trying to lose weight. My story is long and convoluted so I won't bore you with it, but safe to say, I am now at a place where I am over 22 stone, diabetic, depressed etc etc etc. I lost emy husband 2.5 years ago to a Pulmonary Embolism, and since then my son has been terrified that I am going to die as well because I am obese.
I am going through the 4healthyweight program which, if you have not heard of it, is run by the NHS and I would recommend it heartily. I also found out that a lot of my eating is emotional (see depression) so I found myself a counsellor who I can stay with as long as I like (NHS ones are limited time unfortunately) For £10 a week I have an hour to talk to a wonderful woman called Marty, who has helped me more in the last few months, than I have ever been helped with my feelings. She has helped me come off the happy pills, which numbed me but fed my emotional eating problems. So I am currently going through the withdrawal from those, well worth it though (think loss of appetite, runny stools, severe tiredness) Zzzzzzzzz
Sorry, got sidetracked. And now I am being offered weight loss surgery and I cannot make my mind up about it. Are the risks of being seriously obese greater than those of undertaking surgery? I don't know and I am hoping that I can talk to people with greater knowledge than me, to help me make a decision.
My main problem is lack of funds. I am a carer for my 13 year old autistic son (higher functioning ASD) and buying food normally means spending the majority of the food budget on his food and adding in what I can for me and my daughter :O. So think full fat cheddar (not that horrible plastic half-fat stuff) although I only have lactose free semi skimmed milk (diabetes) which he hates.
My health trainer (another complete and utter nutter who is an absolute darling) managed to secure me a personal budget to pay for online yoga lessons (I don't want to go to a gym for crying out loud!!! Who wants to see a fatty like me melting at the gym) The yoga is amazing and not that expensive in the long run (www.gaia.com) More importantly they have chair based yoga for those of us who cannot get onto the floor and, most importantly, cannot get back up off it without a crane or two.
I keep getting conflicting dietary advice from all these wonderful people though as my diabetic dietitian wants me off carbs and everyone else wants me on them and should I really be drinking caramel lattes (I have a Tassimo machine my lovely late Ivan bought me) even if only once a day?
To be serious though I did manage to lose 4 stone years ago when I was a single mother (for the first time) and I would really like to get back that feeling of having succeeded and being able to walk miles without my back and legs falling out with me.
My dream is to be able to do yoga on the mat, to walk down to the beach everyday, to be able to buy clothes from highstreet shops and to be able to reach my clutch pedal properly without having to bury my belly into the steering wheel.
Yes I did get to hold the FA Cup many years ago when I was still working