My motivation just plummeted
I started my proper exercises and watching what I eat 27th of May, so over 3 weeks ago, soon it will be one month. And my weight... and fat percentage... and how tight are my pants... All stayed the same. My weight is jumping up and down, or rather around my starting weight. Is it not different from my starting point, or from Sept'16 (when I had short period of trying to change myself), and from numbers that I entered last year (March/April, with 53/54kg) when I tried to change myself.
I know it takes time, but... Maybe I am doing something wrong? Maybe I should be VERY strict and forbid myself all food pleasures and sweat more (almost everyday) to have results I dream about? But how long could I survive with such army-like regime? Or maybe I should give up and just accept that my dream was just a dream and it is not achievable for me without sacrificing my life?
I want to comfort eat and dull my emotions with food, Nutella preferably, followed by tuna, cucumber, eggs, white bread with butter, whipped cream, cake, doughnuts, plate full of pasta with creamy sauce, flashed with Sangria, coffee liquor, and beer.
Damn, I am in bad place I need to find strength within myself to push myself from the bottom and to see the light of hope and faith again.