I am sick of feeling alien to myself. Up until I had my second son I was under 8stone and that was a good weight for me as I'm only 5ft. But I am now 9st 5lbs and feel fat and frumpy. I want to go out walking but I feel unattractive and just want to hide. I'd really like to get back to being me again. Does anyone understand what I mean? I don't tell anyone how I feel and I keep making excuses not to go out.