Well, this week has been interesting so far. I was supposed to be starting a new job on Tuesday and one that I had to really psyche myself up to apply for and was thrilled to be offered. Due to a mix up and bureaucracy but thankfully not my fault, I am now in limbo as to a start date or indeed, if I have the job at all. I was 'lost' when I got back home and very despondent. But, you see, it was harder for me as I am a wee bit of a control freak.
I love lists, I need plans, I like to know where my family are so they are safe.....my lists have lists! So having the rug pulled from under me has given me a wobble.
BUT.....it also has given me the chance to reflect and this is something I rarely do. There are some things I just do not have control over. The job is one of them. So why am I writing this on this blog?
Well, I did not log my weight this week as I have maintained....that is not bad as I am now becoming more aware of my body than I have ever been. I cannot control my hormones....I am fed up on the same day every month, there is that week when I am bloated and look tired out, then the fog lifts and the scales show a loss and my energy levels increase. The one fabulous thing is that I CAN control how I deal with the cyclical blip days. I keep up my exercise, I keep down my calories and I am so very, VERY chuffed that I am finally able to take control of that!
Instead of dwelling and wondering what to do today, I went out on my first Couch 2 5K and I was absobloodylutely knackered! The sheep were embarrassed as I wobbled past them, swearing at the poor app trainer telling me it is time for my next sixty second run....but I did it!!!! That wasn't on my list!
Sorry to waffle on.....but this healthy change is a whole lifestyle change and I am loving it and the continued support on here is absolutely priceless, thank you xx