I was on the forum quite some time back so while some of the oldies will remember me a lot of you will have no idea who I am...or how charming I am....or incredibly handsome ... or... well you get the idea
Enough of that baloney.
I have always struggled with depression and up until a couple of years ago tried to fix that with huge quantities of food and alcohol.
I gave up drinking 3 years ago because I ... well I was an alcoholic no two ways about it
I assumed life would magically fix itself once I wasn't sucking down a couple litres of wine a day but not so much. Apparently some time is required for healing so here I am a couple years later and finally starting to feel good and much more content with life.
Like everyone, I have good and bad days and if I could describe Salted Caramel Chocolate Mousse from my local supermarket and how it has magical properties to improve the mood you would be asking me to airmail it to you....until you look at the scale two days later and realise there might be a downside when you consider a serve is 1/3 of your calories for the day!
Sorry I guess I am kind of blathering because I am not sure how to reintroduce myself but I am sure as I go through and start commenting etc. I will settle in again.
But I seem to have turned a corner and am no longer craving rubbish and when I do I don't really enjoy because I know I will feel bad at the end. Even today I thought to myself "I haven't had a treat in almost 2 weeks and I am tired maybe I will get a kebab and some chips" and immediately went and bought some organic chicken breast and made a nice healthy dinner! Who is this person I thought to myself (kind of smugly I will admit ) lol
Since my last weigh in 7 months ago I have lost 7 kilos (145 down to 138).
Admittedly most of that has been lost in the last 4 weeks but nice to see I have gone down not up.
Anyway thats enough from me and I look forward to getting to know you all (again).