I am 5ft 6 and 21 stone it feels pretty bad to write that down. I want to make better choices without that fear of missing out that I get when I try and be more healthy. I start looking at other people eating chocolate and crisps and feel like they are enjoying themselves more than me and wouldn't it be more fun to have a biscuit. I'm trying to focus on how good it feels to be slimmer because I've done it before and I have a new job now where my colleagues are all reasonably health conscious so aren't having unhealthy snacks during the day.
I also have an obsessive personality and when I start thinking about a healthier lifestyle I overthink everything and get truely obsessed to the point that it becomes unsustainable and I crash and then it's not just a blip it's a tremendous fall into unhealthy habits that make becoming healthier seem like a huge task again. Then it feels like the whole thing is pointless because I'm sure I'll fail again.
Trying to take one day at a time. Trying to find ways of 'treating' myself that isn't food. Trying to enjoy forms of excercise. Trying to incorporate that exercise as seemlessly as possible into my life.