I am very new to this site so apologies if this type of post has been written before but I am driving myself crazy this evening and don't know what else to do.
I have recently come back from a trip to New York which I loved!! But I can't stand looking a the photos because of how big I look in comparison to my friends. I am in my 30's and whilst they are all on average a size 8-12 I'm a size 20 (soon heading for a 22).
Not only do I hate how much larger I am than them; I am also worried about how unhealthily I am becoming and that the more weight I put on, the harder it will be to loose!
I am not a gym phobe but recently the thought of going there fills me with dread and panic because of not knowing what exercises will help me the most. I try to eat healthy but I live on my own so often I end up with 'quick' meals rather than dietary balanced ones. And at the end of a long stressful day at work, I have no partner to come home to so a bag of chocolate buttons ends up being my comfort!
....woe is me!!
In my head I have lots and lots of motivation and good intentions. But in reality I struggle to make that first step. This results in a constant mental battle, which to be honest, makes me feel exhausted in itself! It seems like such a long road ahead and I don't know where to begin. Any advice or words of wisdom? Thanks x