newbie-my third day

[Wadestreet]

Well I am working on my third day hopefully of recovery. I am still trying to keep moving on exercise of my half hour walk. I had to push myself to do it today but I made it. I find it hard 3rd or 4th day if I am not perfect in eating I slide back. I go to the dollar store for cheaper price chocolate and gorge. But my eating has been good the past 2 1/2 days. Still have a bit of sugar. I am hoping just to concentrate on walking which eventually I will feel better and then it will become second nature and enjoyable. I find it hard to give up the perfectionism of the compulsive binging eating disorder. I have been struggling since I was 16 now 53. As well I purge with laxatives if it a really bad binge. I don't know why I do it I am 240pounds and do not lose weight when I do take them. I know I have to work on not trying to perfect, but it is so hard to like yourself just as you are and your situation will fall into place. Where do I start liking myself, what do I do. And keep eating as best as you can and not binge if your having not so perfect day. Where do I go from here?

[IndigoBlue61]

Hello Wadestreet 😊 I wish I could wave a magic wand and make you like yourself. 😕 I think we have all felt like you do at some point. It does get easier, the healthy eating becomes habit. But I think you know that. You are smart and strong and know full well a day that is less than 100% isn't a failure. It's getting back on plan that makes you a winner, accepting we are human and will have off days (weeks in my case!)

You have had three successful days, that's great! 😊 You have started walking which is also an excellent start. You are on track. 😊 Focus on that. You are doing great 😊Be kind to yourself.

Good luck and very best wishes 😊

[Wadestreet in reply to IndigoBlue61]

Thank-you so much. I am so lucky to have found this site. The people are so encouraging that you want to fight to get better.

[Zest Healthy BMI]

Hi Wadestreet,

Great that you're on your 3rd day. I was wondering if you've read the NHS Choices information on Binge eating? If you'd like to have a look, the link is here:

nhs.uk/Conditions/Binge-eat...

Also, I saw an article that looked quite interesting that you might possibly find helpful:

Jane E. Brody’s article in the New York Times back in 2007:

nytimes.com/2007/02/20/heal...

I hope you don't mind my suggesting those links, but I thought they might be potentially helpful.

Wishing you a great evening.

Lowcal

[Wadestreet]

No low-cal I do not mind the readings. Please keep sending the sites for me. More information the better. I was just saying on the last reply from a member. I am so happy to have found this web site and the members that have been so encouraging that you want to fight the fight to have freedom from the eating disorder. I am almost finished my third day. And I bought 2 pairs of warm sweat pants for $14.00 for the colder days of winter. As of right now I am working on exercise as a goal for the next week or two. Then move forward to another. That is where your readings come into play. They will give me ideas for the mini goals to move forward. Thanks.