Hello, I'm new.
I am a 34 year old female of 5'2" unfortunately weighing in at 17st 1lb.
I have tried all the usual diets although never joined in on groups, forums, etc. hence "first time sharing". I am very secretive about my eating and don't like talking about my weight with friends.
I miss out on a lot in life due to my weight, I am a water baby and love swimming in the sea in the summer but would really love to try out paddle boarding and finding a year round hobby but feel too embarrassed, also I probably won't find a wet suit that would fit me. Also, for years I have wanted to try horse riding, I used too as a young child but now worry that I will be too heavy for the horse or that I will be embarrassed in front of the group by them putting me on a massive horse to hold my weight. Another thing, every year my brother says lets go to Alton Towers and every time I say I'm scared of the rides. I'm not at all, I would love to go but again, fear being too big. Anyway, as you can see I want to do fun things but hold myself back.
I am currently bed ridden due to an anal fistula operation I had last Wednesday which was caused by an abscess but essentially it was all caused by my unhealthy lifestyle.
Following this most uncomfortable operation I now feel like I have had the health scare to wake me up. My body is clearly fed up with the way I have been treating it and has let me know this by giving me a a very painful kick up the ass, literally!
So that's a little bit about me. I am hoping that by being open and honest with you all and joining in on group talks I will find the motivation and support needed to change.
I look forward to meeting you