today I got my invitation, now in writing. Feeling very anxious after seeing it. Hen night (also henna night) having Pizzas and partying.
Dreading it now. I know i shouldn't be but the word "PIZZA" and I'm already freaking out. I don't know what to do so I turned to this to put an ease to my mind. Once upon a time i ate pizza at my hearts content, now i just want to run from it.
2nd. Partying. Ive never partied before and i wouldn't know where to start as I'm a lot more of an old soul.
Im feeling very anxious about calories, on top of calories, on top of calories because when it comes to working out I'm already in pain and that feeling of guilt just before the painful workouts kick in and i don't forgive myself, I'm not the kind of person that says that ok i ate junk food now i have to move on, I'm not like that i punish myself. I freak out just before and so much bad stuff follow on.
Not looking forward to this and worrying what to do as i don't want the bride to be to feel that she's not eating or having good time although she's knows what I'm like, but still it is her night and i don't want to be rude, so feeling very anxious and not so happy or even safe at the moment, so i think that il work out so hard, and then eat pizza but that won't help, it will just make matters worse.
so i turned to health unlocked to open up to with my worries and anxiety and i dredd to think about the food at the wedding.
what to wear? is another story itself, but one storm at a time