Hi, newbie here still reeling from the news received this week that I am 'clinically obese' 4 stones overweight having succumbed to an 18 month long manic eating disorder. Heaviest i've ever been in my life. Immediately after leaving doctors surgery , I sat in my car crying knowing that I MUST now face up to what I am doing to myself, then headed straight for the pasty shop. !! I am soo miserable & fed up of looking at my ever growing disgusting body. Why cant I find the motivation to do something about it?? !! Help !!!!!!!!!!!! My pic is me at 10 stone - 5 years ago, Where has that girl gone ??