The battle with me in not knowing what is healthy and what isn't, what makes up a good diet and what doesn't (I have an honours degree in Nutrition), it's 2 things really. Firstly, due to me being a chef and being very hyperactive, It seems like I have an insatiable appetite. I am just hungry basically all the time.
But my main problem is my attitude towards myself. I hate myself. And everyone seems to hate me. I am not a teenager anymore and I hoped these mood swings and the feeling of being ostracised would go away once I was in "the adult world" but they haven't, they just seem to have gotten worse. I hate the fact that I'm not very good at putting my point across- I am smart but I just don't convery it well at all like others. I've never been a good looking girl. I was thin once but not anymore. I've failed at everything I thought I wanted to do. And all of this would be ok, I could be the massivest failure ever, as long as I had friends and was happy. But I don't. I have failure, no friends, and I feel like such a freak all the time. Nobody should have this thing in their head telling them "for gods sake "name here" just try not to say anything weird" all the time when amongst people. Ugh, life.