So I’m going to try use this page as a bit of a diary to form the basis of my weight loss and healthier life style. I need somewhere to vent out my frustrations as a food addict. Because essentially, that is exactly what I am. I am addicted to food. I’m addicted to the feel good endorphins. I currently weigh 13st 2 lbs which is roughly 84kgs. I stand at 5ft 3.5 which is around 163cm. I have a BMI of 31.4 and classed as obese. I also have prediabetes.
I’m a YOYO dieter with good intensions of being healthy & happy but never quite stick at it long enough to reap the benefits. I have a somewhat active lifestyle & love walking the fells with my dog. I go horse riding twice a week, try to do jogging or some sort of exercise 3 times a week. I was a regular at bootcamp but due to going back to study a Masters I don’t have the time or money for the gym. I have signed up to the challenge of doing a 10k trail run in Keswick on my 24th Birthday in September! (Wish me luck)
I’m generally a happy bubbly person when my world isn’t centred around food, losing weight or trying to fit into a bikini. I get super frustrated with myself because I have lost weight before. Even if it wasn’t quite the right way of doing so, I lost it. So I know what it’s like to be the slimmer version of me. I worry less. I laugh more. I’m more care free. My attitude is just different because I don’t have to wear a mask to hide anything. When I say anything I mean my fat. I know it’s about loving yourself and also feeling confident in the skin you’re in. But I don’t. I get out of breath from walking up stairs. I sweat more. I feel heavy. I feel awful. I can’t love my body when I don’t feel the love back.
So I do apologise if you follow me, and it’s all about ME. But that’s why I’m here to focus on me and help others by supporting each other. If you’re cool with that, then: “Hi, I’m Shana and I’m a food addict.”