So woke up day 3 of no chips and no chocolate and thought to myself.
What is this feeling of clarity. Where has the gluggy, half dead feeling gone?
Is this some marvellous dream or heaven I have wandered into? Where is the heavy stomach and heavy eyelids?
Could this be some intoxicating drug I have been given while I slept or some amazing injection a wizardly scientist has given as I slumbered?
Or could it be that after 3 days of not eating crap my body is saying "Thank **** for that!!!"
I have a reminder set up on my phone that says - word for word - "Don't forget how good you feel when you exercise and eat healthy".
It comes up every day at 3:00 p.m. and today I saw it and thought YES! It's true! I so wish I could bottle this feeling and sniff it or drink it to remind myself of how much better we feel with out all those rubbish in our systems.
And for those of you who know about my back pain, maybe you assume its better
No - today is the worst it has felt and despite that I feel wonderful compared to the last who knows how long just because I have stopped eating junk.
And every stab I get from my back, every gasp I let out as I stand up and feel the pain hit and every twinge and ache that happens I immediately think "Chips and chocolate" I visualise them as the needle points of pain cascade down my lower back, I imagine the taste of chips and the chocolate as my muscle spasms and I groan with pain.
Hmmmm this all sounds very 50 Shades! but it's helping.
I was in the supermarket this arvy and as I walked past the chocolate I shuddered because it made me think of my back pain
SO yes - feeling great and in lots of pain. Its a good thing!
P.S. No I am not losing it....well maybe a little