Hi all hope you're doing well
Just a quick hello as I am not quite ready to come back "full time" as it were but things are progressing.
I have been finding hard to kick this habit I have of chocolate and chips after work. No matter how much strength I wake up with my brain just seems to scramble and I end on the lounge after work downing chips and chocolate before I even know I have bought them.
Since September last year I have gained 16 kilos which is almost a kilo a week - insane!
On days where I do not have my chocolate and chips I have become so delusional that I started to think "Well, I am not having any junk today so I should lose weight tomorrow and then I can have some chocolate, hooray!". Uh huh - weighing in at 145 kg lol
I mean come on - what kind of junk addict brain thought is that
And then 2 days ago my lower back spasmed. Right now I can move, walk and stand but if I sit for too long as I go to get up I get shooting pain in my lower back.
I KNOW this is just from all the extra weight and having a muscle spasm in my back which will subside in a day or two now I have some anti inflammatory's and a hot wheat pack for my back.
The silver lining is that when I woke up yesterday morning and felt a pain shoot into my back as I went to get out of bed it gave me the physical jolt/wake up call I have needed I think.
Haven't had a single bit of junk for two days now and have zero desire for any.
All I am thinking is I have to lose weight so my back won't go out again so its been a motivator...despite being a real pain in the back!